laws of nature

is it wrong to like someone else's girlfriend? As i was driving to work, this dj suddenly came up with this topic.it got me thinking...hehehe. to be honest,im a very very very bad person. i made two relationship which was perfect break because i wanted to grab the girl. i don't know, it was exciting to do that. It is like hey, i can break up a perfectly normal relationship. The worst part of it, i got it back! The girls chose someone else and not me after they broke up!hahaha
*Alicia key's song playing in my head*what goes around comes around ,what goes up must come down.
Maybe that's the reason i am single. Maybe it is a payback time from HIM!
Tidak apa lah...i enjoy being single tapi kadang kadang....hmm...
All the single people out there...unite..
Ok, i ran a bit out of topic for a while,*spank myself*
I don't think it is a wrong thing. I mean, if you love the other person,and that person has feelings for you...why not?to hell with the boyfren,too bad he couldn't keep up to her standard! Plus, you know, love is blind but sometimes people tend to get confused over love and affection. Imagine, you steal someone else's girlfren and you realize that it was just affection and not love..die lor!!
But if you put yourself in the boyfren's shoes...damn i would kill the girl and the guy..both!
Even worst if you know the guy who actually stole ur girl. My god, how can they live?
I would commit suicide..seriously. A promise i give to all my frens, don't worry, i wont even try to get near your girlfrens...so they are safe...hahahaha i can't handle the consequences.
So, if you are planning to get someone else's girlfren or boyfren, think twice..or three times.
I have been there, trust me, you wouldn't want a enemy when you leave this world.heheheh

a handful of joy

When you are happy, you expect everyone else to feel the same. When you are sad, you expect evryone to understand you. Is this normal for a human? Why is it so? There are some who likes to make other people happy when everyone is sad. This at times can be very helpful but most of the time just anoying. There are people who wants others to be sad when everyone is happy. On the other hand, there are some who don't show emotions at all because they don't want people to know anything about them. There are some who can disguise verl well that means when everyone is sad but they are happy, they would act sad also. There are some vice versa.

Why am I writting about this? I have no idea. I just felt like writting about it.

Is beauty really not skin deep? Then,why do people admire the beauty which is skin deep only most of the time? Lets say some one good looking does anything that is nice, they would be categorized and beautiful. What if someone not so good looking does something nice? A good human being? Why can't they be called beautiful also? Let's say someone good looking acts really unpleasant. They would be called names but deep down inside, it will attract those who called names in the first place. Why is it so? Because their attractive?because they are pretty?because they are beautiful?

Talk about human behaviour towards something huh?

It is a mystery that even GOD is trying to figure out. :)

back-stabbers

ahhahahaha, i hope my fren is reading this as i have told him i would write bout it!
i was just joking. u have done it before, so it doesn't have a great impact on me as i was potraying it yesterday.
so, chill..sometimes i just think that u know me too well,man!
:)

best compliment i got so far

"But deep in my heart u r one of a kind...N u will hv a special place in my heart.."

Unedited version....:)

Priotrity

As the whole world knows, i am a sensitive person. only thing that they don't know is...i don't show it. I thought in this blog, I could write whatever I am not satisfied about and pin-point each person who has actually made the condition uncomfortable for me. Now, I am just not sure wether I can do that. I am afraid it might, you know offend them. Damn!
Ok, lets come to the story..forgive and forget? Easy to be done, aint it? For my sake, I am that kind of person. I often get angry, but i will forget before the day ends. It is like an addiction. You know what you going to get out of your action, yet you want to do it because you want to forgive and forget. That's funny or maybe I am just sick!
Sometimes, you have to do something that you know going to offend some people but for self-centered reasons you have to do it. It all comes down to U in the end. If you think about it, everyone in this world are self-centered. It only can be seen clearly with some. The rest just don't show it literaly. For example, when you help someone, the reason you do so is for self satisfaction and get a good impression form the person you are helping. So, isn't that selfish?
Sometimes, when you put something to ur priority, stick with it! Why do you have to change your mind? If that is important, do that. U promise a person one thing and then cancel it because something else comes up. And then you cancel that thing also because something else comes up pulak.. The person you ditched in the first place would have felt two impacts. Maybe he/she tought ok, i believe the reason he canceled is reasonable. But when you cancel that so that you can meet someone else....thats just too much. Even if you are friends or not friends, the anger would still be the same. *sigh*
Why do people tend to get jealous of someone? For me, if it is a person i know personally, I would never get jealous. Instead I would be proud and happy for that person. If the lucky person is someone I don't know, I get really jealous. I don't know why! Maybe my nature of being a good person kut...hahahaha
My family...i don't miss my brothers at all. My parents call me each day without fail..so there's a lil bit of eagernest to meet them. But most importartly, my grandmother. Love her soo much. I soo miss her, miss her cooking as well. I basically grew up with her since both my parents were working. So, I am closer to my grand mother than anyone else in the family.
Quit smoking? Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahha (that's all i could say!)


I want to try writtin a poem,so comment on it who ever reading it,ok?

As green as the leaves,
As red as the cherries,
As blue as the sea,
As bright as the Sun,
As innocent as a child,
As pure as love,
As beautiful as friendship,
As good as it gets,
As far as we go,
As close we will be,
As forever that would be...
As anything comes along,
As much it makes us stop,
As along as I have you,
As that much I know I am alive!


Thank you,thank you.....:)

Rojak Pasembor

Things has turned from bad to worst. As I was thinking I was actually coming out of all the clusters, I am being pushed down more and more. I believe this is a test GOD is putting on me to see how far can i go. Well, I'm gonna prove to HIM alright. With the people who loves me around me, I know nothing can change or make me cry. Some problems settled in a very uneasy way where the decision made actually solves the problem but not in a pleasant way. The only problem which is haunting me very very much now is MONEY! The budget I made doesnt seem to be right! I have no idea. I think I have to sacrifice somethings in life that I love so much for this. But I know things will change. That is what that is still keeping me going on. My faith in me is slowly disapearing and if i don't react now I dont know where am i gonna go. I can see bright light in front of me, but i have a hard time to leave the street i am standing now. I love it so much. people trust me, people think i am a part of the family, yet i just can afford it. The price that i have to pay is just to much. I have taken the first step away from the street. let's see how far do i need to go to reach the brighter side.
I wouldn't know what i would do without all my frens. Who am i gonna tell stuff to, who am i gonna get up in the morning wake them up and say good morning before leaving to work? who is gonna give me rm1 when i don't have money to go back?who is gonna go for lunch with me? who am i gonna go dinner with? who am i gonna disturb when i am bored? who am i gonna make fun of? who is gonna make fun of me? who i am gonna beat up? who?.....who?
I believe evryone has to go through this period of feeling. Man! It is even worst than falling in love! I tell to myself always, where they gonna go? they gonna be around. only that not with u. so, it doesnt matter. but the distant! thats the poison in every relationship i have had so far.
When u go futher apart, the more u gonna feel ur frens like strangers. I know keep in touch is good but how far can that work? U will have ur own set of frens, i will have my own set of frens. can't be making fun and do crazy stuffs like last time. distance makes the heart grow fonder and stranger...i believe.
As much as i love my school frens, my uni frens are the ones i love more. i dont know why but i feel that they will always be ther like brothers and sisters. After this, dont know wahts gonna happen...i just dont want to go through this period, i still want to drive my frens around, i still want my frens to pay for me when i dont have money, i want to fetch my frens from pudu, i want to go for holidays with my frens, i want to have lunch with my frens, i want to fetch my frens back from campus, i want to get drunk with my frens....:((
I really love u guys and hope we wont go apart...

over and over again

I had a very bad day yesterday. I don't know what happened to me. It was some sort of nervous breakdown I suppose. I was suddnely bombaded with all this problems from all these people. You know what got to my head? The fact that all these people are having these problems and I am having this totally opposite sort of problem. Yes, I admit, when it comes to giving advice, I am too generous ( I will talk as thoguh I have been through all the situations but actually, I just figure out how to come out of a certain problem) but when it comes to me who is having problems, I just .....
Ok, I will tell you what my problems are ( damn! im started the whining again!) but what the heck,it's my blog anyways...heheeh
1. I am not very happy with the job I do now, even though it is the best job in the world.
2. I am feeling something's gonna happen...had a bad dream
3. I feel my frens are actually floating away from me...
4. I have no money, but I will try to get some just to lend it to my friends
5. People in this world have changed from what I knew when I was in School or even University
6. I am just sad, had a braindead. I had this pile of work to do and all i did was stare at the monitor
7. I was damn hungry (i try not to use bad words)
8. I take things easy but when someone close to me does something out of my league, i get touchy ( yes i am a touchy biatch)
9.Everythnig seems to be going wrong.
10. I am just pissed with myself, everyone else and i think i deserve something better than what i have now.


Ok, there,i said it.....so what i did yesterday?? hmm... after work, say it was around 5, just to get things outta my head, i drove and drove and drove and drove every possible road i can get with the putut amound of petrol i had in my car tank. And I mananged to just sit,drive, turn the music loud and think bout what the heck just happened to me! I t then was around 8 and my good fren started calling me to ask where the hell am i and why am i not back to the apartment yet. so , went back. Some how i felt a relieve like something heavy has just been lifted from my head.

When I met my frens back in the apartment, my mood just changed back to normal...i guess thats why you call them friends huh? Even when they don't say anything, the presence of them just made me happy back. Went for dinner, couldnt eat much even when i didnt have my lunch..:) After that, all my frens turned crazy..just crazy..the thing that we did was just out of this world....but i can't tell u here...hehehee

Well, that was my day, and I really thank god for my frens...cherish them a lot...one wise man said, the closer you get to a person the more you get angry with them for simple things and the more you will start to care for them. So, thanks buddies...luv y'all

simply sucky

I believe in fate,but that doesn't mean that i leave everything to it. Fate is what I create for myself. For instance,when you say it is fated for me to be in the position I am in, it was up to me to actually get here. How can you say it is fate? Fate for me is when it was a fate that I was here, and it was a fate that I met this girl and it was a fate that I fell in love for her (sorry for the lovey dovey mood,it's valentine's day,work with me people!)
Well, talk about a day of sorrow man! It has been like this for like pass 5 years. The worst is when you would love to have that someone to be ur valentine but that person belongs to someone else ( got you people wondering ehh? ehehehehe) Don't worry, not anyone that you people know of. I believe it is not fate that has brought me here, but it is me,yes myself ...i wanted this..now I have it,thank you god,your so generous in all these things,aren't you?
Ok, I know I ma just typing crap here...I am affected by the day, i suppose, i want to believe it is the day,so back off anyone who thinks it is not or else...
I was kinda upset for another thing...i got to know my fren was scared to tell me something...u think i can be harmful to anyone?Come on,i'm this cute little thing that loves to love people...yes, i do bite at times but it is in a lovey dovey intension. Common, it does hurt a bit but anyways, since i found out from someone else rather than you....it hurt even more...
I will recover, i need time...man, i sound so phatetic..sicko...im so emotional...my my ....i have to change,grow up!
All i do is whining.....damn!

funny funny world

Its funny how the world turns out to be. People hate each other, people love each other, people just don't care about each other and people who cares about you too much that it gets annoying. Alittle bit of something is nice but a lot of something just ruins the mood. Like a famous chef always tells..don't put in the ingredients more that it suppose to be as it will make your food suck!(my grandma told me)
I believe people mean stuff they do, but keep in mind my friend, people hate it when you bump into their business. If they want you to bump into their business, they will tell you to. So, until than, don't try to act like a hero....you will be the one hurt at the end.
Don't you just hate it when someone starts touching you and as you try to avoid it, they keep coming closer? You can't say anything to them because you don't want to offend them. But if you like touching stuff, why don't you go touch yourself?at least you get the satisfaction, ;P .
So what if i still have feelings for my crush? I know it ain't gonna happen, no sparks to be sparkling any type of connection...but the satisfaction i get of knowing that i actually have feelings for someone.It just gets my feet off the ground.
If you don't want any relationship than, get your butt of my life! You know I still have feelings for you..and I can't be your mentor in solving problems because all I am going to do is to make you breakoff with your other half. Ok, maybe I WILL do it...without me realising it!
I am happy that you are happy. But trust me my dear, I am happy too. Happy that you are not in front of me because I don't think I will let him go off that easily. He would probably have a black eye and bruises around you know where.
But after all, that is the best for me. I know you mean no harm but it is harmful just to hear from you. Time will never change what has happened. Get on with your life.....without me.Let me live, let me breath, let me go pick some other flower for my diary.
I don't have to go through the pain of downs in love? Well, you shown me one, and trust me, it is the worst i felt so far. So, who are you to judge wether I will get a gem or just a plain stone? Either way, they both don't have feelings. I bet that what you want me to go through....don't you?
I am lucky? Who said so? Ok, maybe I am. But I am not lucky enough to have you. Doesn't it all just vanish in the air now? Doesn't it?
You maybe not the first BUT surely you have been the hardest to be forgotten.
You don't have to apologize, what's done is done. If it's meant to be it's meant to be. If it's not, it's just plain fucking not.
You are forgiven not forgoten....and you will never will be.
Thank you, Thank GOD and thank the fate.

RM10 per person can keep this boy alive

Hi guys,

This is Shuresh here. I have done a website in the aid of this young boy who is currently in SJMC,diagnosed with cancer (specifically stomach cancer).He is only 5 and has been through hell. I went to visit him last weekend after my friend told me about him. He is in a serious condition and his father started crying to me telling me that he has lost his ways to find for funding his son's operation. They need at least rm150 000 to completely heal him. I believe this is a right place for us to start to give the boy a helping hand. I really think we should help him as his father told me that the boy keeps on asking him when can he go back home. I just can't bare the pain to look at him. Im agine how his parents futher more,himself would feel? We should do something bout it. Pls guys help.

I beg u...http://www.geocities.com/s_k82/

...shuresh...

Singapore! here i come!

I am going singapore tommorow!! woo hooo!! Ihavent been there for like 7 years. Excited one side, worry also one side.Have to go and come back the same day with my boss somemore!!! It is a business trip so i guess it has to be that way. Singapore!watch out! me coming there!ahahahahhaaha!
I cant believe my boss trust me so much til he wants to bring me along so that i can meet the company clients. He wants me to handle the account after i get introduced to them. I am not sure of sticking with the company though. Probably in like few months...chow only..hehehe( thats if i get a better offer) but til then, im stuck with flaming pear sdn. bhd. It is a wonderful job and i love it! but it is just a stepping stone for me to get into the real working world...so i leave it to HIM to decide where my career path leads.

Nothing lasts...

My dear workmate didn't get the pleasure of working with us anymore as the company couldn't afford to...what the hell??? I f you don't want to take in people,you shouldn't have applied to take him in the first place??Now as he got comfortable,you have to break the news.It is not that I'm too sensitive or anything, but he is the psyco who lights up the office. Now if he leaves, it is gonna be like hell in the office...Gonna miss his jokes and talks badly. I hope he gets a better job with a better salary and other wonderful workmates. I still remember the times we use to talk bad bout other workers in the office, hahahaha. Now that he is leaving, I am thinking of going off too. You must come and experience it urself. This office, is a dead place. Everyone work work and work. No one talks to each other unless it has something to do with work. Salry,hmmm...cukup cukup makan jer..since it is a small company, and i mean it when i say small because there gonna be only four of us if he leaves. How I wish he would stay. Damn!

My world

At times when you feel like you are alone in this world, you tend to think about so many stuff. When you think that the person you can depend for the rest of your life, that's when you will realise you were wrong. I believe on the statement,"me,myself and i"
Not only me, but i bet a lot of us go through this,you feel like you are alone in this world, neither your parents nor your friends are trustable and depend on. But one thing that happened to me that made me think back. When ever i feel not comfortable, out of cash, need a friend to talk to or just to tell my problems, i can turn to my parents. They have been there for me for like 22 years,but I have never seen it. After starting my working life,it hit me quite hard. But just when I thought I am lost, my dad came to the resque. They would do anything for me. I am so thankful for my parents and always will. No one in this world that I would trade for my parents. Even if I don't get married, I would be happy enough if I could stay with my parents.
Then, my friends. I love all of them, but they too have their lifes. I can't be depending on them most of the time.I don't own them. But for my parents, I and my brothers are their world. Inow have a life that many would wish to have. My loving parents who are there for me no matter night or day and my beloved friends who I cherish always. Even at times we might have some misunderstanding or arguments but at the end of the day, we would be like nothing has happened. Thats one thing I love about my friends.

my life, my business...butt off !

Why do people like to butt in people's life? I hate it when people talk about what I do! It's my life, my set of friends. So, if you got any problem with that, go shoot yourself! Is it wrong to talk to someone to make friends? My friends are my world. They are more important for me than my life itself. But when I get restricted to whom I should interact with and to whom I shouldn't, it pisses me off. People fail to understand that if someone talks to you, it is on the basis of friendship not LOVE! grow up people! there are more to life,so get out of the nutshell and explore the world. I admit, I do talk behind people's back, but once that person clear things up with me, i stop! but some don't get it. they have this brain made out of clay that nothing get absorbed. even if you tell a million times it is still wrong for them. If I fall in love with someone, I would tell the whole world, if I am going after someone I will tell the whole world too....so until then, just keep your comments and remarks about me to yourself. I couldn't care less about what you talk about me as long as it doesn't involve the third party. If you say i'm ugly, fine with me, you say i'm fat, fine with me but when you start creating something that is not there and try to make it as though it is there, that's just plain stupidity. So, i believe you are not that stupid to actually do that. People out there who are reading this, you can mean it in a joke manner but remember, I am not the only person involved here. You wouldn't want to hurt anyone else. Please and to all, im clarifying now, I AM SINGLE AND NOT IN LOVE WITH ANYONE AND I AM NOT GOING AFTER ANYONE..........

watcha lookin at?

Everyone is unique in a certain way,but why do people get tempted to get a second glimpse on a certain people?Is it their looks? is it that they are unique( in a very unpleasant way?)or can it be that they remind you of someone? I had this experience so many times.I don't really understand why but i have caught few people staring at me for no reason.Some times I myself would not notice it but when my friends tell me,i would feel ackward enough.Not to mention, i have done it few times myself. Some people are born beautiful which naturally attracts attention towards them. But some really try hard. They would like to look different and stand out in the crowd when they are anywhere. I was once like that, but all the attentions was not pleasant at all. When people don't just stare and start talking behind your back,that is very very hurting especially you hear it from someone else. Nowadays, being invisible suits me better. I hate socializing,so i thought all the attention would only keep me away from them actually coming and talking to me. I was wrong!
Sometimes it doesn't hurt to get noticed in public,but it would the best if you get noticed not for your physical appearance.Don't get me wrong, it is not that i am saying beautiful people should go through the knife or anything to hide their appearance but if you are beautiful but people actually look at you because you have achieved something greater than just your looks, it would be damn cool! I remember Aishwarya saying something to an interviewer, "the best praise I got is not that people say I am a greek godess in an indian soul but when people say i am a good actress and i am for real!"
So, people out there who wants to be noticed,make sure it is because of something you did and not for how you look or how you want to look.Long live the good looking people!hehehehe

Still a wonder

Have you ever had the tought of you being watched all the time? I came up with this theory of life and I have shared it with a couple of my freinds and the response was like,"you really got nothing to do, do you?"Hmmm...actually I don't have anything to do so I just let my mind explore to the extend of human creation.
Now, to my story,I admit I believe in GOD, but that doesn't mean I have to go to temple or pray everyday,right? Even if you say no,thats not going to change my way of believing..One day,as I was driving back from work, it hit me! I started questioning why do I even exist? Then, slowly I came to this conclusion. We all are dummies done by GOD as a specimen for HIM to come up with a perfect human being. We all know no one can be perfect! So, what he is doing is creating humanbeing and seeing what would a person do in different situations. For example, if you fail in your papers,what would you do? HE gave us brains which somehow doesn't stimulate to extreme measures of decision making which can actually be the answer for that specific situation.No one is wrong,it's just that the way they think,the way HE wants them to think and come up with the perfect solution.One friend asked me," so you don't believe in heaven or hell?" I said no. Its like you are given a soul, which has been improved from the person before you, all the mistakes he has done has been corrected and given to you....now, your job is to make more mistakes to be corrected by GOD.When it comes to the day where HE thinks that you are ready to be a whole new improved version of human being,there will the day the meteors visit earth again.I am not talking bout the small tiny meteors,no i am talking about the revolution of changing the whole world. As it has happened before where humans have improved from stone age to revolutionized culture and humans who can think and talk languages.This happened because the GOD thought he was ready to release a new set of humans into the world to be tested.
Ok, now i BET i just have confused you nicely,now now....just forget about whatever you just read because that is just my opinion and i bet you guys have your own thinking and believes.No offense to anyone,ok?

Please be free to give your opinions ya ;)

The effect of boredom

Hola fellow sapiens....i have decided to create my own blog under the circumstances of boredom.Even though I hate typing and writting,i bet the blog that i have created would be mostly my opinions on stuff and the things that bother me probably for that specific day.So if anyone gets offended or even agree with me do be free to drop down a comment.I will NOT try to change or edit my opinions anywayz,hehehe...so just read on..