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Hello people! It has been a while since I updated my blog. Well, been busy with work...freelancing stuff, moving office,travelling from home to work,spending time with family and friends and etc.
Moving office was so damn tiring, but I think it was worth it, I mean we now work in an apartment/villa that has been transformed into an office. It way more comforting than the one we were before.
I have been busy with freelancing stuff .Spending most of my time with work work work nowadays. Sad...:( I don't have enough time for my friends now. But I try to keep in touch.
Have been very much financially challenged this month! Ihaven't pay for my car for two months. Lend my friend 500 bucks, need to take my road tax and insurance for the car and my my.....*sigh* need a raise! that's all I can say...:P
Oh yeah, I am staying in my office for the next one month! I know, it's phatetic and people say I don't have a life! How can u stay in your office?? It's like staying in hell and don't want to leave! Well, I love my job, so it is not so bad plus I get some time alone with myself. Time to think over so many things, finish up unfinished things and well, just away from people. Sometimes we need that to refresh ourselves from the normal routine life we have. It makes you realise so many things. Well in my case, i stay in my office...it does sound sad! hahahahaa
I am actually taking some time off my work(freelancing) to write this. Since I herad rumours that there are many people out there often check my blog to see my update..yes you! i was definetely talking bout u...hahahha gotcha! Niewayz, to all that reads my blog, thanks for the support and I promise I will update my blog as long as I have the time and internet to do so. Enjoy reading and don't just read give comments. Oh come on don't be lazy! U came this far, wat would it take for you to write a comment?
I have been following american idol and man can bo sing! carie is not so bad either. My current favourite tv show is "lost" If you have the chance, catch the show on axn. It is a good show. worth watching.
Ok boys and girls. bed time! I think I will continue tommorowla to do my work. too sleepy...:P

GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE!

i love u...yes u!...yes u!!!

Afrikaans : Ek is lief vir jou Ek het jou lief

Albanian : Te dua

Amharic : Afekrishalehou

Arabic : Ana Behibak (to a male) Ana Behibek (to a female)

Basc : Nere Maitea

Bavarian : I mog di narrisch gern

Bengali : Ami tomAy bhAlobAshi

Berber : Lakh tirikh

Bicol : Namumutan ta ka

Bulgarian : Obicham te

Cambodian : kh_nhaum soro_lahn nhee_ah Bon sro lanh oon

Cantonese : Ngo oi ney

Catalan : T'estim (mallorcan) T'estime (valencian) T'estimo (catalonian) T'estim molt (I love you a lot)

Chinese : Wo ie ni (Manderin, Cantonese)

Croatian :
Volim te (most common), or Ja te volim (less common)

Czech :
miluji te

Danish :
Jeg elsker dig

Dutch :
Ik hou van jou

Estonian :
Mina armastan sind

Esperanto :
Mi amas vin

Persian (Farsi) :
Tora dust midaram

Flemish :
Ik zie oe geerne

Finnish :
Mina" rakastan sinua

French :
Je t'aime

Friesian :
Ik bin fereale op dy Ik ha^ld fan dy (Most commonly used phrase) (the ^ is above the a)

Gaelic :
Ta gra agam ort

German :
Ich liebe Dich I mog Di ganz arg! (Suebian: South German dialekt.)

Greek :
S' ayapo

Gujarati(a dialect of India)
"Tane Prem Karoo Choo"

Hausa :
Ina sonki

Hebrew :
aNEE oHEIVET oTKHA (female to male) aNEE oHEIV otAKH (male to female) Ani ohev at (man to woman) Ani ohevet atah (woman to man)

Hindi:
Mein Tumse Pyar Karta Hoon

Hokkien :
Wa ai lu

Hopi :
Nu' umi unangwa'ta

Hungarian :
Szeretlek te'ged

Icelandic :
?g elska ßig

Indonesian :
Saya cinta padamu Saya Cinta Kamu Aku tjinta padamu Saja kasih saudari

Italian :
Ti amo

Irish :
taim i' ngra leat

Japanese :
Kimi o ai shiteru

Kazakh :
Men seny jaksy kuremyn

Kiswahili :
Nakupenda

Korean :
Tangsinul sarang ha yo

Kurdish :
Ez te hezdikhem

Latin :
Te amo Vos amo

Lao :
Khoi huk chau

Latvian :
Es Tev milu

Lingala :
Nalingi yo

Lithuanian:
Ash miliu tave

Luo :
Aheri

Madrid lingo :
Me molas, tronca

Malay/Indonesian :
Saya cintakan awak(awak=kamu=you) Aku sayang engkau (engkau=kamu=you)

Malay :
Saya cintamu Saya sayangmu

Maltese:
Inhobbok!

Mandarin :
Wo ai ni

Mohawk :
Konoronhkwa

Navajo :
Ayor anosh'ni

Ndebele :
Niyakutanda

Norwegian :
Jeg elsker deg (Bokmaal) Eg elskar deg (Nynorsk)

Pakistani :
Muje se mu habbat hai

Persian :
Tora dost daram

Pilipino :
Mahal Kita Iniibig Kita

Polish :
Ja Cie Kocham or Kocham Cie (Pronounced Yacha kocham)

Portuguese :
Eu te amo

Romanian :
Te iu besc

Russian :
Ya lyublyu tebya Ya vas lyublyu

Scot Gaelic :
Tha gra\dh agam ort

Serbian :
Volim te (most common), or Ja te volim" (less common)

Shona :
Ndinokuda

Sioux :
Techihhila

Slovak :
lubim ta

Slovene :
ljubim te

Spanish :
Te amo

Swahili :
Nakupenda

Swedish :
Jag a"lskar dig

Swiss-German :
Ch'ha di ga"rn

Tagalog :
Mahal kita

Taiwanese :
Gwa ai lee

Tamil
Naan Unnai Kadhalikiren

Thai :
Phom Rak Khun Ch'an Rak Khun

Tunisian :
Ha eh bak

Turkish :
Seni seviyorum!

Urdu :
Mujhe tumse muhabbat hai

Vietnamese :
Anh ye^u em (man to woman) Em ye^u anh (woman to man) Toi yeu em

Vlaams :
Ik hou van jou

Welsh :
'Rwy'n dy garu di. Yr wyf i yn dy garu di (chwi)

Yiddish :
Ikh hob dikh lib

Zazi :
Ezhele hezdege (sp?)

Zuni :
Tom ho' ichema

A friend sent me these meaningful messages...just wanna share it with u guys

Don't be too good, I will miss you.Don't be too caring, I might like you.Don't be too sweet, I might fall for you.It's hard for me to love you when you won't love meafter all...
Bottomline :A person who makes me loves him/her is actually aperson who loves me more than I love him/her.


If someone comes into your life and becomes a part ofyou but for some reasons he couldn't stay, don't crytoo much...Just be glad that your paths crossed and somehow he made you happy even for a while.
Bottomline :Time will tell, If he's yours he will come back


Don't throw your back to love when it's already infront of you, don't drive it away from you because if you did, someday you'll think again why you let love fly away when it was once next to you.
Bottomline :Treasure the one who loves you, it's not easy to find a person who loves you. It's always more valuable to have a sincere heart.


The greatest regrets in our lives are the risks we did not take. If you think something will make you happy, go for it. Remember that we pass this way only once.
Bottomline :Time don't wait. If you think you might have found theright one, treasure him/her. Don't let he/she goaway.


Don't let fear hold you back.Give it a try else you might regret later...No one other than yourself knows what can truly makeyou happy.

Two tear drops were floating down the river. One teardrop said to the other,"I'm the teardrop of a girl who loved a man and lost him. Who are you?"..."I'm the teardrop of the man who regret letting a girlgo..."
Bottomline :Nobody will sympathise a person who constantly let chances passes by without making any efforts to salvage. We normally don't realise how important our loved and closed ones are until they left us, we'll start reminiscences which results to misery


There are so many stars in the sky but only some are radiant enough to catch your attention. Among those that you chose to ignore is that one star which is willing to continue shining for you. Even if your glance remains elsewhere.
Bottomline :Phrase 1 :The present person who you are with for the time being may/may not be the one you truly love.
Phrase 2 :Should a person who knows that he/she can't be with you for the time being and yet still continue to love you whole heartedly for who you are is touching.Think about it.


It's so funny how we set qualifications for the rightperson to love, while at the back of our minds we knowthat the person we truly love will always be anexception.
Bottomline :We are critical especially to the one we like or lovebecause we want them to be the best, constantlyseeking for perfection, which should be worked out byboth parties in a relationship and not one party alone>to>shoulder the burden.


Love can make you happy although often times it hurts.But love is only special if you give it to which it'sworth.
Bottomline :If you found someone who truly appreciates you, He/she>deserves more of your love.


To love is like playing the piano. First, you play bythe rules. Then,you must forget the rules and playfrom the heart.
Bottomline :Trust is important , to trust a person you like / love must first let the person you like/love trust you.Have confident in yourself and the person wholikes/loves you. Never leave them doubts and don'tdoubt what he/she has to give.


What If someone tells you this:I don't believe in courtship. It's just a waste oftime. If I love the person, I'll tell her right away.But for you I will make an exception...just love me>now and I'll court you forever...
Bottomline :Love needs time to realise, there might be love atfirst sight but it takes time to let one graduallydiscover their affection towards another,miss him/herwhen he/she is not around, hope to hear from he/shewhen the person haven't write or call.


It's always better to have found the courage to loveeven if you lose it in the end rather than never foundlove because you were too afraid of the challenge.
Bottomline :Don't give up if you face or think that you havecompetitors. It's always better to try, if you suceed,the reward is more than you can expect.But if youdon't try or don't summon up the courage, you mightlose the one you like/love forever...


You never lose in loving. You only lose in holdingback.
Bottomline :Don't be afraid to tell the person you like/love howmuch you like/love him/her. Let them know, let themn decide and make a decision. The Best thing in life is to tell the person you like/love how important they are to you, by doing so, you feel liberated. And you are proud of yourself because you are responsible to your own feelings. Never betray your own feelings,because only you who suffers, no one else.


The greatest challenge in our life is to find someonewho knows our flaws and differences and yet stillwillingly embraces you with so much love.
Bottomline :Love is a means of self giving and self sacrificing,if he/she knows your flaws and still willing to acceptyou, continue to like/love you as you are or evenmore, boy, you are lucky! This person truly deservesyour love and affection.


The spaces between our fingers were created so thatanother person's fingers could fill them in.
Bottomline :Open your heart, let people love you, never doubttheir intentions,sincerity can be felt by the heart.


When you love, it is not for you to be understood butfor you to understand;not for you to take but for you to be taken; to listen, not to dictate; to sacrifice and not to demand; not to count or measure but to love.Gravity:Keeps you down to earth...Makes your burdensheavier...

END...

We are the music makersAnd we are the dreamer of dreams,Wandering by lone sea-breakers,And sitting by desolate streams;World-losers and world-forsakers,On whom the pale moon gleams:Yet we are the movers and shakersOf the world for ever, it seems.

>>>>=====>>>The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.

>>>=====>"Don't cry because its over, smile because it happened."

finally, i got a chance to take some days off the office. Been sick and tired of staring at the monitor all day long. My boss is in Las Vegas enjoying himself. Kavitha just came back from holiday in penang and pity putri, she hasn't been anywhere except for the regular hang out places she goes with her friends.
CHERATING!!! I know, i know, kinda lame but hey, not always i get to spend time with my frens rite? Plus this (hopefully not!) gonna be the last outing from the apartment. So, i am going to enjoy myself like i have never done it before. I wish i could drive down there since i love driving so much.
In the cc now, prem wanted to use the internet so followed him here and i was bored, dont know wat to do, so i wanted to write something before leaving to cherating tommorow morning.
We have to move away from cyberjaya soon as the letter to evacuate the place has arroved to the office. Hopefully when jim comes back he would still find a place in cyber.
I kinda miss my virtual frenla.Hoy! message me lah, by the way, i am gonna top up my 012 soon :) anything, just message there.
Tried to catch up with the movie industry. Watched chandramukhi, mumbai express, sachein and the pacifier. Cool movies, but then sachien was just crap.
SEPET! that's a good movie but i think the story went too fast, i missed the parts when they actually fall in love. I tot that part they did it too fast.
Was chattin with putri today, eventhough we work in the same office, we prefer chattin through yahoo. She was rellin me to go find a girlfren! i dont know why she said that, but that got me thinking. Maybe im too attached to my frens that i forgot to live my own life. I am pretty sure that pretty soon i will recover as we are not gonna stay together niemore.....*sob* *sob*
niewayz, gotta go i think prem getting bored as well....will update when i get back from paradise CHERATING!!!!!

Deep-s**t

I don't know why, now days, people are so ignorent about things around them. All they care about is themselves. At the end of the day, they do the same mistake others do but they do not realise that. Instead, they will make a big fuss out of the mistake that others did .But when it comes to them it will become "not wrong" for me to do that kind of thing.
I admit, I have been a bit bias about things around me. I am trying hard to please every single human-being that i know,who lives all around my pathetic little life. All they could do is complaint complaint complaint. I'm fed up. It's not like they understand my situation of trying to keep everyone happy. They only care about themselves. Who gets the blame? ME ME ME!
I'm telling you, it is not easy at all to try to please everyone. Some understand, others just dn't care about the position you are in. They just bang bang bang. Come on la people, try to understand man, I also human being you know, i got feelings too. I sacrificed the one thing i wanted to do for a such a long time for that matter; but do people even care?All they know is i have offended them and i am bias. Hello! I am as sick and tired as you are!
I was kinda sad yesterday, i got called a lalang!hahahaa......hmmm...yeah....i know....:)

ok, need to rush to the bank boss wants cash.chow!

o, i, c, u, r, m, t.

Had a very hectic week. monday...let me recall, o..yeah, jee came over and asked me to help out with her fyp. I couldn't help much as we guys were planning to go for dinner. We went to TGIF! I know i know,it is kinda shamful but this was my first time to visit this place. I had pasta which had this really funny name that i can't remember.(i don't think anyone would!)Came back around 12 back home and was soooo damn tired. Went straight to bed. after like 40 minutes, there was a comotion in the aprtment. all of these guys started running out of the apartment and they were trying to tell me something but i was too sleppy to notice it. Then i thought maybe the right thing to do is get out of bed and check out what was the hoo hoo haa haa about. I went out and all these guys standing outside the apartment shouting at me, asking me to come out now! so i also took my car keys and went thinking maybe they wanted to go and eat. Then, they told me that there was an eartquake! I went hahahahahaha. They got the news from cyber. but it was certainly fun.
tuesday, came back from work and continued with the flash thingy...i mean jee's fyp. I learnt alot from this tutorial. things i never knew flash can do. so, it was a discussion most of the time. went to bed early as i was tooo tired after office work.
wednesday, the day i excercised!Hahaha..it was an experience indeed! we went to a friend's newly opening restaurant. "kalyianee's" i think the name was. we suppose to leave at 7 but we left at 7.30pm. got stuck in the jam after sunway,so took the npe. got stuck in the jam in pj. so took a loooong turn to tmn. jaya. took lrt to ampang park. from there had to walk like 2km to the place(i remember it as a torture than excercise). went there, and got straight to the food section as i was freaking hungry. had a good dinner. then had to walk back two kilometers. got back home, too tired to do anything...went straight back home.
thursday, had a hectic day in the office.so much thing to do,so little time!! went back home,continued the discussion with jee.went for dinner. waited for the clock to strike 12.15am because we planned a prank on nantha. called jenny and told her to call nantha and say there was another eartquake! he bought it...
had a good laugh!
friday today, had to finish up some left over project from hsbc which has been going on forever!!!
now i am waittin to go back!
ok,i think i continue some other time..hungry,belum makan la...chowz

laws of nature

is it wrong to like someone else's girlfriend? As i was driving to work, this dj suddenly came up with this topic.it got me thinking...hehehe. to be honest,im a very very very bad person. i made two relationship which was perfect break because i wanted to grab the girl. i don't know, it was exciting to do that. It is like hey, i can break up a perfectly normal relationship. The worst part of it, i got it back! The girls chose someone else and not me after they broke up!hahaha
*Alicia key's song playing in my head*what goes around comes around ,what goes up must come down.
Maybe that's the reason i am single. Maybe it is a payback time from HIM!
Tidak apa lah...i enjoy being single tapi kadang kadang....hmm...
All the single people out there...unite..
Ok, i ran a bit out of topic for a while,*spank myself*
I don't think it is a wrong thing. I mean, if you love the other person,and that person has feelings for you...why not?to hell with the boyfren,too bad he couldn't keep up to her standard! Plus, you know, love is blind but sometimes people tend to get confused over love and affection. Imagine, you steal someone else's girlfren and you realize that it was just affection and not love..die lor!!
But if you put yourself in the boyfren's shoes...damn i would kill the girl and the guy..both!
Even worst if you know the guy who actually stole ur girl. My god, how can they live?
I would commit suicide..seriously. A promise i give to all my frens, don't worry, i wont even try to get near your girlfrens...so they are safe...hahahaha i can't handle the consequences.
So, if you are planning to get someone else's girlfren or boyfren, think twice..or three times.
I have been there, trust me, you wouldn't want a enemy when you leave this world.heheheh

a handful of joy

When you are happy, you expect everyone else to feel the same. When you are sad, you expect evryone to understand you. Is this normal for a human? Why is it so? There are some who likes to make other people happy when everyone is sad. This at times can be very helpful but most of the time just anoying. There are people who wants others to be sad when everyone is happy. On the other hand, there are some who don't show emotions at all because they don't want people to know anything about them. There are some who can disguise verl well that means when everyone is sad but they are happy, they would act sad also. There are some vice versa.

Why am I writting about this? I have no idea. I just felt like writting about it.

Is beauty really not skin deep? Then,why do people admire the beauty which is skin deep only most of the time? Lets say some one good looking does anything that is nice, they would be categorized and beautiful. What if someone not so good looking does something nice? A good human being? Why can't they be called beautiful also? Let's say someone good looking acts really unpleasant. They would be called names but deep down inside, it will attract those who called names in the first place. Why is it so? Because their attractive?because they are pretty?because they are beautiful?

Talk about human behaviour towards something huh?

It is a mystery that even GOD is trying to figure out. :)

back-stabbers

ahhahahaha, i hope my fren is reading this as i have told him i would write bout it!
i was just joking. u have done it before, so it doesn't have a great impact on me as i was potraying it yesterday.
so, chill..sometimes i just think that u know me too well,man!
:)

best compliment i got so far

"But deep in my heart u r one of a kind...N u will hv a special place in my heart.."

Unedited version....:)

Priotrity

As the whole world knows, i am a sensitive person. only thing that they don't know is...i don't show it. I thought in this blog, I could write whatever I am not satisfied about and pin-point each person who has actually made the condition uncomfortable for me. Now, I am just not sure wether I can do that. I am afraid it might, you know offend them. Damn!
Ok, lets come to the story..forgive and forget? Easy to be done, aint it? For my sake, I am that kind of person. I often get angry, but i will forget before the day ends. It is like an addiction. You know what you going to get out of your action, yet you want to do it because you want to forgive and forget. That's funny or maybe I am just sick!
Sometimes, you have to do something that you know going to offend some people but for self-centered reasons you have to do it. It all comes down to U in the end. If you think about it, everyone in this world are self-centered. It only can be seen clearly with some. The rest just don't show it literaly. For example, when you help someone, the reason you do so is for self satisfaction and get a good impression form the person you are helping. So, isn't that selfish?
Sometimes, when you put something to ur priority, stick with it! Why do you have to change your mind? If that is important, do that. U promise a person one thing and then cancel it because something else comes up. And then you cancel that thing also because something else comes up pulak.. The person you ditched in the first place would have felt two impacts. Maybe he/she tought ok, i believe the reason he canceled is reasonable. But when you cancel that so that you can meet someone else....thats just too much. Even if you are friends or not friends, the anger would still be the same. *sigh*
Why do people tend to get jealous of someone? For me, if it is a person i know personally, I would never get jealous. Instead I would be proud and happy for that person. If the lucky person is someone I don't know, I get really jealous. I don't know why! Maybe my nature of being a good person kut...hahahaha
My family...i don't miss my brothers at all. My parents call me each day without fail..so there's a lil bit of eagernest to meet them. But most importartly, my grandmother. Love her soo much. I soo miss her, miss her cooking as well. I basically grew up with her since both my parents were working. So, I am closer to my grand mother than anyone else in the family.
Quit smoking? Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahha (that's all i could say!)


I want to try writtin a poem,so comment on it who ever reading it,ok?

As green as the leaves,
As red as the cherries,
As blue as the sea,
As bright as the Sun,
As innocent as a child,
As pure as love,
As beautiful as friendship,
As good as it gets,
As far as we go,
As close we will be,
As forever that would be...
As anything comes along,
As much it makes us stop,
As along as I have you,
As that much I know I am alive!


Thank you,thank you.....:)

Rojak Pasembor

Things has turned from bad to worst. As I was thinking I was actually coming out of all the clusters, I am being pushed down more and more. I believe this is a test GOD is putting on me to see how far can i go. Well, I'm gonna prove to HIM alright. With the people who loves me around me, I know nothing can change or make me cry. Some problems settled in a very uneasy way where the decision made actually solves the problem but not in a pleasant way. The only problem which is haunting me very very much now is MONEY! The budget I made doesnt seem to be right! I have no idea. I think I have to sacrifice somethings in life that I love so much for this. But I know things will change. That is what that is still keeping me going on. My faith in me is slowly disapearing and if i don't react now I dont know where am i gonna go. I can see bright light in front of me, but i have a hard time to leave the street i am standing now. I love it so much. people trust me, people think i am a part of the family, yet i just can afford it. The price that i have to pay is just to much. I have taken the first step away from the street. let's see how far do i need to go to reach the brighter side.
I wouldn't know what i would do without all my frens. Who am i gonna tell stuff to, who am i gonna get up in the morning wake them up and say good morning before leaving to work? who is gonna give me rm1 when i don't have money to go back?who is gonna go for lunch with me? who am i gonna go dinner with? who am i gonna disturb when i am bored? who am i gonna make fun of? who is gonna make fun of me? who i am gonna beat up? who?.....who?
I believe evryone has to go through this period of feeling. Man! It is even worst than falling in love! I tell to myself always, where they gonna go? they gonna be around. only that not with u. so, it doesnt matter. but the distant! thats the poison in every relationship i have had so far.
When u go futher apart, the more u gonna feel ur frens like strangers. I know keep in touch is good but how far can that work? U will have ur own set of frens, i will have my own set of frens. can't be making fun and do crazy stuffs like last time. distance makes the heart grow fonder and stranger...i believe.
As much as i love my school frens, my uni frens are the ones i love more. i dont know why but i feel that they will always be ther like brothers and sisters. After this, dont know wahts gonna happen...i just dont want to go through this period, i still want to drive my frens around, i still want my frens to pay for me when i dont have money, i want to fetch my frens from pudu, i want to go for holidays with my frens, i want to have lunch with my frens, i want to fetch my frens back from campus, i want to get drunk with my frens....:((
I really love u guys and hope we wont go apart...

over and over again

I had a very bad day yesterday. I don't know what happened to me. It was some sort of nervous breakdown I suppose. I was suddnely bombaded with all this problems from all these people. You know what got to my head? The fact that all these people are having these problems and I am having this totally opposite sort of problem. Yes, I admit, when it comes to giving advice, I am too generous ( I will talk as thoguh I have been through all the situations but actually, I just figure out how to come out of a certain problem) but when it comes to me who is having problems, I just .....
Ok, I will tell you what my problems are ( damn! im started the whining again!) but what the heck,it's my blog anyways...heheeh
1. I am not very happy with the job I do now, even though it is the best job in the world.
2. I am feeling something's gonna happen...had a bad dream
3. I feel my frens are actually floating away from me...
4. I have no money, but I will try to get some just to lend it to my friends
5. People in this world have changed from what I knew when I was in School or even University
6. I am just sad, had a braindead. I had this pile of work to do and all i did was stare at the monitor
7. I was damn hungry (i try not to use bad words)
8. I take things easy but when someone close to me does something out of my league, i get touchy ( yes i am a touchy biatch)
9.Everythnig seems to be going wrong.
10. I am just pissed with myself, everyone else and i think i deserve something better than what i have now.


Ok, there,i said it.....so what i did yesterday?? hmm... after work, say it was around 5, just to get things outta my head, i drove and drove and drove and drove every possible road i can get with the putut amound of petrol i had in my car tank. And I mananged to just sit,drive, turn the music loud and think bout what the heck just happened to me! I t then was around 8 and my good fren started calling me to ask where the hell am i and why am i not back to the apartment yet. so , went back. Some how i felt a relieve like something heavy has just been lifted from my head.

When I met my frens back in the apartment, my mood just changed back to normal...i guess thats why you call them friends huh? Even when they don't say anything, the presence of them just made me happy back. Went for dinner, couldnt eat much even when i didnt have my lunch..:) After that, all my frens turned crazy..just crazy..the thing that we did was just out of this world....but i can't tell u here...hehehee

Well, that was my day, and I really thank god for my frens...cherish them a lot...one wise man said, the closer you get to a person the more you get angry with them for simple things and the more you will start to care for them. So, thanks buddies...luv y'all

simply sucky

I believe in fate,but that doesn't mean that i leave everything to it. Fate is what I create for myself. For instance,when you say it is fated for me to be in the position I am in, it was up to me to actually get here. How can you say it is fate? Fate for me is when it was a fate that I was here, and it was a fate that I met this girl and it was a fate that I fell in love for her (sorry for the lovey dovey mood,it's valentine's day,work with me people!)
Well, talk about a day of sorrow man! It has been like this for like pass 5 years. The worst is when you would love to have that someone to be ur valentine but that person belongs to someone else ( got you people wondering ehh? ehehehehe) Don't worry, not anyone that you people know of. I believe it is not fate that has brought me here, but it is me,yes myself ...i wanted this..now I have it,thank you god,your so generous in all these things,aren't you?
Ok, I know I ma just typing crap here...I am affected by the day, i suppose, i want to believe it is the day,so back off anyone who thinks it is not or else...
I was kinda upset for another thing...i got to know my fren was scared to tell me something...u think i can be harmful to anyone?Come on,i'm this cute little thing that loves to love people...yes, i do bite at times but it is in a lovey dovey intension. Common, it does hurt a bit but anyways, since i found out from someone else rather than you....it hurt even more...
I will recover, i need time...man, i sound so phatetic..sicko...im so emotional...my my ....i have to change,grow up!
All i do is whining.....damn!

funny funny world

Its funny how the world turns out to be. People hate each other, people love each other, people just don't care about each other and people who cares about you too much that it gets annoying. Alittle bit of something is nice but a lot of something just ruins the mood. Like a famous chef always tells..don't put in the ingredients more that it suppose to be as it will make your food suck!(my grandma told me)
I believe people mean stuff they do, but keep in mind my friend, people hate it when you bump into their business. If they want you to bump into their business, they will tell you to. So, until than, don't try to act like a hero....you will be the one hurt at the end.
Don't you just hate it when someone starts touching you and as you try to avoid it, they keep coming closer? You can't say anything to them because you don't want to offend them. But if you like touching stuff, why don't you go touch yourself?at least you get the satisfaction, ;P .
So what if i still have feelings for my crush? I know it ain't gonna happen, no sparks to be sparkling any type of connection...but the satisfaction i get of knowing that i actually have feelings for someone.It just gets my feet off the ground.
If you don't want any relationship than, get your butt of my life! You know I still have feelings for you..and I can't be your mentor in solving problems because all I am going to do is to make you breakoff with your other half. Ok, maybe I WILL do it...without me realising it!
I am happy that you are happy. But trust me my dear, I am happy too. Happy that you are not in front of me because I don't think I will let him go off that easily. He would probably have a black eye and bruises around you know where.
But after all, that is the best for me. I know you mean no harm but it is harmful just to hear from you. Time will never change what has happened. Get on with your life.....without me.Let me live, let me breath, let me go pick some other flower for my diary.
I don't have to go through the pain of downs in love? Well, you shown me one, and trust me, it is the worst i felt so far. So, who are you to judge wether I will get a gem or just a plain stone? Either way, they both don't have feelings. I bet that what you want me to go through....don't you?
I am lucky? Who said so? Ok, maybe I am. But I am not lucky enough to have you. Doesn't it all just vanish in the air now? Doesn't it?
You maybe not the first BUT surely you have been the hardest to be forgotten.
You don't have to apologize, what's done is done. If it's meant to be it's meant to be. If it's not, it's just plain fucking not.
You are forgiven not forgoten....and you will never will be.
Thank you, Thank GOD and thank the fate.

RM10 per person can keep this boy alive

Hi guys,

This is Shuresh here. I have done a website in the aid of this young boy who is currently in SJMC,diagnosed with cancer (specifically stomach cancer).He is only 5 and has been through hell. I went to visit him last weekend after my friend told me about him. He is in a serious condition and his father started crying to me telling me that he has lost his ways to find for funding his son's operation. They need at least rm150 000 to completely heal him. I believe this is a right place for us to start to give the boy a helping hand. I really think we should help him as his father told me that the boy keeps on asking him when can he go back home. I just can't bare the pain to look at him. Im agine how his parents futher more,himself would feel? We should do something bout it. Pls guys help.

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...shuresh...

Singapore! here i come!

I am going singapore tommorow!! woo hooo!! Ihavent been there for like 7 years. Excited one side, worry also one side.Have to go and come back the same day with my boss somemore!!! It is a business trip so i guess it has to be that way. Singapore!watch out! me coming there!ahahahahhaaha!
I cant believe my boss trust me so much til he wants to bring me along so that i can meet the company clients. He wants me to handle the account after i get introduced to them. I am not sure of sticking with the company though. Probably in like few months...chow only..hehehe( thats if i get a better offer) but til then, im stuck with flaming pear sdn. bhd. It is a wonderful job and i love it! but it is just a stepping stone for me to get into the real working world...so i leave it to HIM to decide where my career path leads.

Nothing lasts...

My dear workmate didn't get the pleasure of working with us anymore as the company couldn't afford to...what the hell??? I f you don't want to take in people,you shouldn't have applied to take him in the first place??Now as he got comfortable,you have to break the news.It is not that I'm too sensitive or anything, but he is the psyco who lights up the office. Now if he leaves, it is gonna be like hell in the office...Gonna miss his jokes and talks badly. I hope he gets a better job with a better salary and other wonderful workmates. I still remember the times we use to talk bad bout other workers in the office, hahahaha. Now that he is leaving, I am thinking of going off too. You must come and experience it urself. This office, is a dead place. Everyone work work and work. No one talks to each other unless it has something to do with work. Salry,hmmm...cukup cukup makan jer..since it is a small company, and i mean it when i say small because there gonna be only four of us if he leaves. How I wish he would stay. Damn!

My world

At times when you feel like you are alone in this world, you tend to think about so many stuff. When you think that the person you can depend for the rest of your life, that's when you will realise you were wrong. I believe on the statement,"me,myself and i"
Not only me, but i bet a lot of us go through this,you feel like you are alone in this world, neither your parents nor your friends are trustable and depend on. But one thing that happened to me that made me think back. When ever i feel not comfortable, out of cash, need a friend to talk to or just to tell my problems, i can turn to my parents. They have been there for me for like 22 years,but I have never seen it. After starting my working life,it hit me quite hard. But just when I thought I am lost, my dad came to the resque. They would do anything for me. I am so thankful for my parents and always will. No one in this world that I would trade for my parents. Even if I don't get married, I would be happy enough if I could stay with my parents.
Then, my friends. I love all of them, but they too have their lifes. I can't be depending on them most of the time.I don't own them. But for my parents, I and my brothers are their world. Inow have a life that many would wish to have. My loving parents who are there for me no matter night or day and my beloved friends who I cherish always. Even at times we might have some misunderstanding or arguments but at the end of the day, we would be like nothing has happened. Thats one thing I love about my friends.

my life, my business...butt off !

Why do people like to butt in people's life? I hate it when people talk about what I do! It's my life, my set of friends. So, if you got any problem with that, go shoot yourself! Is it wrong to talk to someone to make friends? My friends are my world. They are more important for me than my life itself. But when I get restricted to whom I should interact with and to whom I shouldn't, it pisses me off. People fail to understand that if someone talks to you, it is on the basis of friendship not LOVE! grow up people! there are more to life,so get out of the nutshell and explore the world. I admit, I do talk behind people's back, but once that person clear things up with me, i stop! but some don't get it. they have this brain made out of clay that nothing get absorbed. even if you tell a million times it is still wrong for them. If I fall in love with someone, I would tell the whole world, if I am going after someone I will tell the whole world too....so until then, just keep your comments and remarks about me to yourself. I couldn't care less about what you talk about me as long as it doesn't involve the third party. If you say i'm ugly, fine with me, you say i'm fat, fine with me but when you start creating something that is not there and try to make it as though it is there, that's just plain stupidity. So, i believe you are not that stupid to actually do that. People out there who are reading this, you can mean it in a joke manner but remember, I am not the only person involved here. You wouldn't want to hurt anyone else. Please and to all, im clarifying now, I AM SINGLE AND NOT IN LOVE WITH ANYONE AND I AM NOT GOING AFTER ANYONE..........