Meaning?

Is it true when they say friendship will only go to an extend, true love goes all the way?
I have to admit, I use to think the friendships I have was the best and it will go along till the day I die. But somehow it seems to be a mistake. Or maybe it is just me who is getting all paranoia on this matter.

It was me who had this idea, even if I am not in a serious relationship, I would be happy as my friends would tag along with me, just to make me feel a bit better. I was wrong.

It comes a point in everyone's life when you have so much things that you want to tell out but you just have to shut up and act normal just because you have no one to tell to, no one that you trust. Even if you have, you will be too insecure that it might bore them. Or even the perception they might have on you after you tell them whatever that is bugging your mind.

Sometimes, it is the matter of wetter they have time to actually sit down and listen to what you have to say. Let us put it this way, where are you in their priority list. It all drains down to how much they appreciate your friendship and how much do they have trust in you.

It is totally different now that I am 24 as I have learnt so much to be independent and not to rely on others as it is time for others to actually rely on me. It is a wonderful feeling when people come and tell you their problems and you try your best to help them out, at least for me. End of the day, I am not a self-centered person to be expecting much in return if their problems get solved. Somehow, a little bit of appreciation goes a long way. A"thank you" which comes from the bottom of their heart, simply gives me the pleasure.

Some people do not know how to show their appreciation. As they might say thank you, but then they don't mean it, as in for the sake of saying, I will say it as long as my things get settled, I don't care about you. That my friend, I can read.

It is truly disappointing when you expect someone to be there for you, you know they will be there for you, you trust them so much, but...they act cold. They get annoyed with you.

It is frustrating. But hey, who said life is simple? There are so many small things that will be an obstacle to bring you down. Put your head up and keep on walking, you will reach there somehow.

Many people have many ideas on what they should have done, what they should do now, what they want others to do. End of the day, it all depends to the individuals choice. If what they expect others to do is done, they will feel they are in control. What they do not understand is that they might offend so many others. Lets work in a team, let others enjoy the feeling that you have.

Do not ignore people because you have got what you want and they do not matter anymore. That is just typically an asshole's attitude. Don't think that it makes you look cool. Remember karma? You wouldn't want that. Trust me.

It took me a lot of effort in trying to put these in words as I don't know how to express how I feel. But this is close. There are still so many things missing and I know all, or maybe few have the same feeling that I am having right now.

May God bless everyone.