All the small things

*SIGH*

I am a strange humanbeing. Maybe too sensitive at times?

It seems to me all the small things that happens in life makes it as the most memorable one.

For example, when I go to the market, i buy vegetables from this indonesian makcik, and she gives a smile, that would make my whole day bright.

Or when I am watching tv and somewhere in there they mention one of my friends name and I smile even when they didnt mean my friend literaly, it makes me happy.

When I am at the bank and for the frequent visits to the counter, the person there knows me by name.

I sit in mycar and see a stain on the seat and remember how it came there, and i feel good, even it ruined the seat, but for the fact that it happened.

When I purchase something for myself, like a shirt and it doesn't fit but still i wear it and someone else notices it, it makes me happy.

When I drink cold water and how it reliefs my thirst, i notice it!

When I buy something and share it with my friends and see how happy they are for me...

When I buy something for my mum and she said she doesnt like it...:)

My boss getting angry with the accountants

How Angelina Jolie's tattoo is crooked

How listening to The Fray makes me calm down

And the list goes on...

But only thing that is bothering me now.....i can't do any small things that makes me feel good....instead, it goes wrong so bad that I start to hate the fact that I could probably be a fucking looser....

Maybe change is good, growing up makes u mature slowly but why would you wanna do it when you are pretty much already comfortable with how you are now? Mostly because all course of action depends on outside influence, the ones you trust the most to understand and being a heartless human being just to make sure others get what they want....just for them to be happy..

I am going through some emotional roller coster which might mean some people might get hurt, terribly.... or it might mean I might be hurt so bad that I would think tommorow would just be a memory.....either way, i have to face it and if it u i am gonna be bluntly unfair and rude, sorry in advance...if it is me, then bring it on....i am here to face the bitch so called life!

In search of peace, a wise man said, forget it, it is just a fucking virtue!

2009 - A brand new beginning?

It better be a brand new beginning!

I just went through reading my last post and i realised the amount of typo errors and grammar mistakes...my my, the england is very the bad.

Lets start with a forwarded mail i got from my fren in Endau...:)


Why men don't write advice columns (I find this so true)

Dear Walter

I hope you can help me here.

The other day I set off for work leaving my husband in the house watching the TV as usual. I hadn't gone more than a mile down the road when my engine conked out and the car shuddered to a halt. I walked back home to get my husband's help. When I got home I couldn't believe my eyes. He was in the bedroom with a neighbour lady making mad passionate love to her. I am 32, my husband is 34 and we have been married for twelve years. When I confronted him, he broke down and admitted that he'd been having an affair for the past six months. I told him to stop or I would leave him.

He was let go from his job six months ago and he says he has been feeling increasingly depressed and worthless. I love him very much, but ever since I gave him the ultimatum he has become increasingly distant. I don't feel I can get through to him anymore.
Can you please help?

Sincerely, Mrs.. Sheila Usk



Dear Sheila

A car stalling after being driven a short distance can be caused by a variety of faults with the engine. Start by checking that there is no debris in the fuel line. If it is clear, check the jubilee clips holding the vacuum pipes onto the inlet manifold. If none of these approaches solves the problem, it could be that the fuel pump itself is faulty, causing low delivery pressure to the carburettor float chamber. It is advisable that you sent your car to a workshop.I hope this helps.

Walter