All the small things

*SIGH*

I am a strange humanbeing. Maybe too sensitive at times?

It seems to me all the small things that happens in life makes it as the most memorable one.

For example, when I go to the market, i buy vegetables from this indonesian makcik, and she gives a smile, that would make my whole day bright.

Or when I am watching tv and somewhere in there they mention one of my friends name and I smile even when they didnt mean my friend literaly, it makes me happy.

When I am at the bank and for the frequent visits to the counter, the person there knows me by name.

I sit in mycar and see a stain on the seat and remember how it came there, and i feel good, even it ruined the seat, but for the fact that it happened.

When I purchase something for myself, like a shirt and it doesn't fit but still i wear it and someone else notices it, it makes me happy.

When I drink cold water and how it reliefs my thirst, i notice it!

When I buy something and share it with my friends and see how happy they are for me...

When I buy something for my mum and she said she doesnt like it...:)

My boss getting angry with the accountants

How Angelina Jolie's tattoo is crooked

How listening to The Fray makes me calm down

And the list goes on...

But only thing that is bothering me now.....i can't do any small things that makes me feel good....instead, it goes wrong so bad that I start to hate the fact that I could probably be a fucking looser....

Maybe change is good, growing up makes u mature slowly but why would you wanna do it when you are pretty much already comfortable with how you are now? Mostly because all course of action depends on outside influence, the ones you trust the most to understand and being a heartless human being just to make sure others get what they want....just for them to be happy..

I am going through some emotional roller coster which might mean some people might get hurt, terribly.... or it might mean I might be hurt so bad that I would think tommorow would just be a memory.....either way, i have to face it and if it u i am gonna be bluntly unfair and rude, sorry in advance...if it is me, then bring it on....i am here to face the bitch so called life!

In search of peace, a wise man said, forget it, it is just a fucking virtue!