Took this from dela's blog - damn funny wei-

Happy Birthday Nivs!

Karma - You gotta' love it

What is the first thing that comes to your mind when I say Karma?

1. That song by Alicia Keys

2. My name is Earl

3. That chill-out place in Hartamas

How many actually realise that karma actually controls your life?

I knew what karma was but I didn't bother learning more about it. As people say, when bad things starts to happen, that is when you start to see where you went wrong.

It may appear to be rather unpredictable when you may do something wrong and when you may do something right. You will think you are doing something right, but it turns out to be something wrong in someone else's eyes. So, how do you judge what is wrong and what is right?

Does it all come down to what we were thought when we were growing up? By religion, and guidance from the elderly? That. I dunno, because I keep telling everyone that I believe in GOD but I don't believe in religion.

So, from what I understand, I will do what my heart and brain tells me to do. If it is something wrong, I am willing to face the consequences, which sometimes tend to be deadly. Seriously, all that karma thing gets to my nerves sometimes..when you start to believe in it of course. It restricts you from doing something you want to do, which happens to be where I am standing now..

To think about it, life will be so boring doing the right things all the time..right? To be a rebel once in a while wouldn't hurt but I have to prepared mentally and physically I suppose.

It has been a tough month and it is only 11th. I don't know how I am going to go through the rest of the month, *sigh*..

Some good news made the smile on my face to appear regularly. By the way, Jacinta got married last Saturday, for those who didn't know. It was a nice small gathering of people who cared for the bride and groom. Her current boss gave a speech that made her tear a bit. Actually, what she said was kind of touching indeed. Made me think, who is going to give speech for my wedding and what would they say? Hahaha...

Somehow, it was a very interesting weekend. I don't know why but I enjoyed it so much, probably the best weekend I had for this year. Don't ask me what I did, because I am too lazy to explain.

Work has become a serial-killer lately, which possibly the reason I enjoyed the weekend so much. Somehow, the plan of going for sea-fishing got me excited a bit. Not sure it will happen or not though..

I got one question before I end this post, if you found a kitten when you were having your dinner, which is obviously sick and might die if you leave it roaming around. You have three option :

1. Take the kitten to SPCA so that they can put it to sleep

2.Take it to the vet, get it treated and keep it as your pet

3.Leave it there to die

What would you do?

Tioman

Sivakumar weds Nirmala (Vasu's sister + Prem's cousin)

The group (a part of it)

Models for the latest colgate advert.

If you look closely, mama and I are not there..and what is vasu looking at?

Me and prem

Growing - you bet it is -

I was going through the photographs and videos i have taken in the past just for fun. (actually i found them when I was cleaning my room) and yes i did clean up my room as spiderwebs were everywhere and clothes piled up on the corner plus some creatures living under the computer table.O.K. lets not drift away from the point here..
all i wanted to say is, how much i have grown in those few years. It is like when I was 17, I looked fucking nerdy and then, when i was 18 and got my first piercing which was on the top of my ear(which got infected and i had to take it out!) It didnt stop there..
I got addicted to it! I pierced one more because I tak puas how come others pierce and I couldnt! It didnt stop there, I went got another one on the same side. So I had two piercing on my left ear. Then, I felt imbalanced. I went and pierced on my right ear as well and took out one of the left ear piercing.
Theeeeennnn, I went and pierced the small thing that sticks out of your face near your ears? Yeah that part. It was freaking painful! But I was addicted, so hey, I enjoyed it!
After that, I went and pierced my eye-brows!....And now, I am left with only one piercing on my left ear. Pretty much crap that I have wrote so far...I know...

Talk about growing..i used to wear this nerdy looking glasses back in school. Then, my friend suggested why don't you go get lenses. And I did! As weird as I am, I got meself a pair of blue lenses (baby blue to be precise!) With that, I went to Uni. But hey, made people remember me, and some fell in love with my fake eyes ;) you know who you are...dont deny it!
....And I finished my Uni life, hey did i tell you my blue lenses got stolen? I got few suspects in my list, yet to find out! but if i catch you...you know what i would do...

Ok, graduation day, drunk, got an oppurtunity to get a tattoo...hey, try and stop me..well, some did try..but I am a stallion (it suppose to be horse but stallion sounds more manly doesnt it?)So, I did get my tattoo and someone asking for discount because we were students? That made me sobber!
Then, lets talk about people I met as I was growing up. My school friends, they are just so..hmm...how do you say it? ..hmmm...loyal? I went missing like for four years and they still cared for me when i met them back! Love all of them, best people i have ever met. Should I name them? Should I? Should I? Nah...they know who they are..
Talk bout uni life, my my...no -fullstop- too much contreversials..hahaha, all i can say to those people who tried to make my life miserable, bite me!
Those who were not hiding under the wolf's skin, lets go get drunk!woohooo

The size! Well, I was freakishly thin at one point in my life, I use to weight 40kg at one point. Then, after school I just puffed up. Tehn, when I came to uni, I went down again, then went up then down and now..up and up and up...

Alcohol has played a major part in me growing up but somehow, i didnt get addicted to it. ciggies, are my food..try to take it away from me, i will fuck u up upside down..

What I remember most, "Ali Khan"! somehow that stuck in my head til now...

Lets see on the asset part, I make my own money now, no problem in that, actually that is a problem..hehe
Drive my own car, moved form my worthy little WJ 126 (EXCLUSIVE CAR : IT RAINS OUTSIDE AND INSIDE THE CAR TOO!) It also let dhayan's car kiss it's backside. (Yes, dhayan has a horny car indeed!) to my wworthy little BGU 9527 (oh wait, i said worthy twice!) yeah, all that i have is worthy...wanna see??

I JUST WROTE A LOAD OF CRAP. (and the fat lady sings!)(I'll put up some pictures on my next post)

Pieces Don't Fit Anymore : Beautiful Song

I've been twisting and turning
in a space that's too small
I've been drawing the line
and watching it fall
You've been closing me in
closing the space in my heart
Watching us fading
and watching us fall apart

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Coz I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do

It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore

Oh, don't misunderstand how I feel
Coz I've tried, yes I've tried
Still I don't know why
No I don't know why

Why I can't explain why it's not enough
Coz I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do

It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

You pulled me under
so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess
that's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises
I'll hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling
until all the feeling has gone

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Coz I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do

It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

"Cyber-fuckin'-jaya" - You know who said it :P

That thing called life

Life is unpredictable. This maybe the most powerful statement anyone can say after a ride on the life-rollercoster. As all of us wish it to be a bed of roses all the time, we can never deny the fact of thorns poking us when we are really high on it. This feeling occurs maybe just for a moment, but if it really pokes you, the scar it leaves may never heal. One may try to avoid the poking, but how many of us can predict when the bloody thorn gonna poke us? None...

All we can do is, lay down on it, feel the pain and get over it. The scar, well, it will be there to remind you about the wonderful feeling you had just lying down. Move on to the next bed, it might not be the same as the previous one, but it might be better. You wil never know until you do it. Hope for the worst, so you will get the best. One satisfied man is the one who knows what he got and makes the best out of it.

When you feel the whole world is about to end, hang on to the people that you know will not let you go. Probably you can count them, but those are the ones who are going to be your roomates in hell. Sharing everything, mostly pain and gives a drive to live your life. It will be painful. But...when you have that comforting hand reaching out for you, you will know you didn't fall too deep after all.

Been there, done that, but was very cautious not to indulge to much, as the consequences are deadly. Some on the other hand, get convinced, that is what they want for the rest of their lives, see the future to be as bright as the sun...but who knows what is running in the other mind? Fake? Hypocrite? Or just plain love? No one knows... I was convinced, but I was wrong.

Everything happens for a reason? A good reason? God's way of saying you deserve better? Who knows? Who knew? Who will know?

All that we can do, hope and deal with all the crap. Heartache - sucks. What happens when you fall, will always stay, forever until you find the remedy to heal the pain. And the remedy is in your own hands. How you going to accept the fact and make it into a positive result.

Sadness, anger, pain, temper, will be fighting to come out, try to control it so that you don't hurt more people in the process of recovering. Life sucks, no denying in that, so stand up and face the world. There are plenty of things to be explored out there which has been put to a stop for a reason. Now is the time to continue the pending desires.

If I have given you a wrong signal, do forgive me. I just wanted a good friend. Not more than that, not ready for a commitment..if it comes, it will, if it doesn't come, I am sorry..forgive me.
Crap, total crap.

Signing off, the fucker who got fucked up.

Only in Malaysia

How many of you have been stuck at the jam in Jalan Pudu near Jalan Bukit Bintang / Pudu Jail traffic light? I have been there like million times and everytime, I will not miss to catch a glimpse on this signboard in front of a chinese shop which apparently sell wood.BUT only in this shop,in Malaysia, we can buy wooden chicks! Check the pic out!

If you happen to pass the road next time, look out for this shop..very the interesting..

MALAYSIA BOLEH!

Speechless

How rich are you? >> I'm loaded. It's official. I'm the 46,943,148 richest person on earth!

2007 - a new begining

my first drink - JD
my first new year wish - Jimpack
my first new year wish (from me) - Ah Bok
my first food - nasi lemak
my first call - Angel
my first tv program - dream girl 2007
my first ciggie - marlboro reds
my first hug - geena
my first movie - vallavan
my first shirt - green
my first pants - brown
my first jeans - wrangler
my first laugh - with geena & sumi
my first cry - non so far
my first crave - lg chocolate
my first drive - from prem's house to mine
my first chewing gum - wrigley's
my first top up - rm10 bucks
my first song - hinder, lips of an angel
my first sales - Antony..

all good so far (touch wood!)

may it continues...;)

happy new year ya'aall!

@ sanctuary