Runaway Bride

How would you feel if your daughter ran away from home to get married to someone you know that can't keep her happy?
That is what happened to my aunty's family.(My father's, sister's family)
It was kind of shocking as i know my cousin very well. She would not do such a thing. It caught me by suprise! This morning, as i was waking up to go to work, we had a phone call. It was my aunty crying like a little girl who lost her way home. She was crying to my grandma for what has happened. My grandma on the other hand, started crying too.
Ok, now to the main story. The place my aunty is staying, KAPAR is well known for indians from the darkside. She was against moving there ever since my uncle bought a house there. But she and her family were forced to move there. Time went by and two of my cousins got married and lived hapily. This thing happened to their youngest daughter. They were asking her to get married as she is 26 now. But she said i will get married when i finish her studies. So, being understanding parents, they said ok. Then, yesterday, this cousin of mine did not come back home from work. They were soo worried. Today morning, my cousin called them and told what happened. As it is my aunty is having health problems. This would definetely make her worst!
It seems, this guy who she is married to, kidnaped her and forced her to get married to him or else, her family will be hurt! It is funny though that my cousin is not so stupid to fall for this kind of things.
Then, my aunty was told that she was (what do u call that thing in english? di pukau) So, she didn't know what was happening and she has no power to stop it. What a bad way to get married to someone. I never thought this would happen to my family.
My grandma was soo sad, she didn't stop crying even when i left home to work. She said, the same thing happened to my aunty(di pukau) long time ago, that she fell sick and would hold her t-shirt and cry every day and night. But in my aunty's case, it was worst. Her husband died in an accident and she was left a widow. Then, she came to concious and came back. But my grandpa chased her away saying he doesn't have a daughter like her. Sad huh? Somehow, she got married to a very good,kind hearted man after that (who is my uncle now) and living hapily ever after.
Another shock came to me few days back, my cousin who is one year younger than me is being forced to get married. This is the sms chat i had with her.
shuresh : Oi, apo khabar?
cousin : baik...............alamhdulilah
shuresh : ahaha, eja pun salah. that bad huh?
cousin : sorrylah, fikiran ku celaru sekarang
shuresh : chill. everything happens for a reason

I don't know what the hell is wrong with my family. What the hell is happening? Everything is moving so fast. Damn! Is it just my family or the whole world!

Cheated

Isn't it funny when you plan something and something else happens? I have so many blogs that has this topic on. Somehow it all comes down to one, numero uno solution. Never plan. :)
I don't plan. I know when i plan, it will never happen or somrthing else happens. *Sigh*
Jim is not in the office today, so is putri. It is getting so regular now that these people just take days off to their convinience. I don't feel like i am working in a office anymore,serious. It is like a hang out place. I have not much office work to do, so concentrating on my freelance work and this blog of course. When i come to office i feel like i am coming home back. free internet access, do what i like doing, designing, coffee, cigarattes, lunch and music. What else you need in an office to make you feel like home? Hmmm...
My boss never pressure me on doing anything( like there are any work to do anyways!) I don't need to apply for anual leave as i can take it anytime i want. N o mcs. Get my salary full every month. This is like everyone's dream job. I have a big feeling somehow, my boss gonna go back australia soon and leave the office empty. So, i would be out of job.HAHAHA
Been saving my money as i know my salary never comes on the same date every month because my boss issues check rather then auto debit it to my bank account. So, i must be prepared. Did not pay my car loan last month because afraid i would have need the money for these people's convo.
Why am i feeling so down now? I don't know! Nothing concerns me but i am feeling it! People say when someone close to you feel sad, u feel it too. Damn.
GOD has done much for me. The things that i want to be done ,won't be granted but other stuffs that i don't ask i get. Why ah??
I have a feeling i am becoming a loner. I don't hang out anymore, it is usally, work home work home again. How sad.
Ok, wanna continue my work.
Peace out.

Signs

Hahaha, my virtual friend sent me this email. Cool shit!

Lonely..i'M so lonely...

Work is getting to my nerves. I regret taking the account into matter. Tu lah...nak berlagak, thinking i can do it. Now customer not satisfied. macam mana sekarang?
One more thing that i have been cracking my head is the design for the stupid brochure that my boss asked to do. Some airlines thingy. He is soo old fashion man. Sigh..
Haven't been going for tea or supper since prem's away to the camp or something. Left me, suresh and lailo. Vasu busy ka pahang, terengganu dan kelantan. Why do i have a feeling he is gonna get married to a malay girl..hmmm...tak tau la...
Went for tea with mande and congo yesterday. Reached around 5.30 and left the place at 7. See how long is my tea time? hehehe wat to do? thats the time i can meet them all. But didnt get to meet bob because he was sleeping. James was coming back from work so didnt get to meet him either.
The weather is making me sick. Kejap hujan kejap panas.Hm.... bila nak salji?
Putri and jim are out to MITV. Me left with kavitha in the office. Now, kavitha just left to go for some meeting with the developer of her new house. Now, left me. Got loads of work but malas nyerrr nak buat.
I am financially unstable now. End of the month..where is my check!!??!!
Planin to go to penang this weekend . see la how it goes.
I dunno why, but suddenly, feel like i have so many things to think bout. Is this wat the call stress?
Was watching d. h. yesterday, eva long**** is hot man( sorry i forgot her name) in her lingerie yesterday.WOW!
Starting to hate the traveling to work and back. Makes me tired and it takes me freakin 1 hour to come to the office and one hour back, so basically i am working two hours extra and still underpaid. how sad.
I am out of credit. So, if i dont send any forwarded message...aiya, just waitlah til i get my salary.
I know that would be the indication. Im ean when i send forwarded messages, people know i got credit. Thats because i forward all the junks i get to people. hehehe I believe that would be a good way to keep in touch. don't u think?
haven't watch any movies for ages. No time la katakan.
i got one great story to tell u guys, but i will keep it for the next post. hehehe

chow!

A brand new revolution

Hardship

It is hard to do something when you know you can not actually do much. As a friend, i feel useless if i can't help my friend on any matter. Reasonly, when my fren is still having his disputes, I am standing here doing nothing. What the hell am i suppose to do? I have power to do anything dispite being a good buddy. The temple trip didn't work out. I went to two temple, asking for forgiveness and making request from him. But he has not done aything to make the situation better. One wise man who shares a same name as moi said this " U should not ask the god what u want, ask him what should i do to get what i want". And then, he will show you the way.
I did exactly that! Nothing happened, he didn;t show me anything. I told him straight to his face, you give me what i want i give you my hair. I did! So, if i get what i asked for, i will be bold for three years to come. Somehow, i doubt that. :(
Watched "ayah pin's" cd. It so embarassing and i raged with anger when i saw a bunch of indians praying to him. In batu caves! during deepavali! and they did some special pooja for him in a temple. Thats ridiculous! Whta tghe hell is wrong with these indians?? To tell you honestly, the people i saw worshipping him were the malays and indians. NO CHINESE.Is it because indians are easily influenced or is it because they would do anything for money? Hmm... a good thing to ponder upon...
Have this craving for french fries lately. Mcdonald's fries to be specific. I practically stop and buy fries from mcd everytime i pass by it.No matter where and wether i am hungry or not. There goes my weight shooting up high!
When you call someone a "pig". Is it offensive or is it ok? I had a crush on this girl who gets all tensed up everytime someone called her pig, dog or by the name of any animals. But ironically, her bf calls her piglet now and she gets excited. See how people change? Maybe for good and maybe it is for worst!
I was glad and thrilled to get comments from Uma for the previous posts. Suprised? The hell yeah! Felt so honoured that she reads my blog.:) and actually enjoys reading it! Ha!
My virtual fren going through tough times as well. I was ther last time she cried after that tragic incident. To think about it , it was funny enough, she was trying to hide it from me. I mean, she was saying nothing is worng nothing is wrong, when infact tears where filling up in her eyes. But, this time, you would do great! I have faith in you!
I have enough problems to think about now. I just realise that my career path is going no where, as well as my personal life. But both, was my choice. Sometimes, when you are driving alone or even watching television, u tend to think bout all the action you have taken and start regreting for it! That's me!
After all this, I still think I am right! Always been! and always will! ha ha ha (vain, as putri calls me!)

peas out

the best picture ever

THE BEST PICTURE EVER TAKEN. TOKEN OF FRIENSHIP. THANKS GUYS.

Random thoughts

It is kind of sad when you get separated with your loved ones even for a minute. But it would be even worst if you get stuck with them every second. So, what is the best duration for you to have a comforatable living with your loved ones?
Had a big argument with my grandma over the weekend. She is soo old-fashioned. I can't digest that. O by the way, "digest" is my current favourite word.
My dad suggested to go for a medical check up as my gastric is getting worst. i Have pain in my stomache at least once a day.
Met up with kartik and accompanied him for his interview in glenmarie which coincidently opposite lailo's working place. He didn't know such company existed the night before when we asked him. Funny? That's lailo! :))
Vasu has this tendency to irritate me everytime he sees me and i don't understand why. But he has always been a good friend and an understanding one. Luv him though.
Prem, wat can we say bout prem...he reads my blog. Thats like the coolest thing anyone can do.hehehe,he is currently busy with his work,comes back late but still finds the time to meet up for supper. thanks dei ;)
Suresh the "non-drinking,non-swearing, goodie boy" (see how i highlighted those words?) well he is nothing like that now. Black label was rather strong for him, if you know what i mean?hehe
I realise one thing bout myself, if i start to hate something or someone, it is pretty hard for me to actually forgive the person or forget what happened. If you are trying to patch things up or even try to be friends with me, forget it, i don't give a damn and no i don't want to patch things up.
I don't need someone like you in my life. I have my frens. a small circle but fun to be in it.
I have my best friend. :) and i have my family. Even though how much i get irritated with all of these people, it still comes down to one thing, i love them all.
I came across this really intersting blog. I know the person. Funny enough, it does make me laugh how people put things together and try to be who they are not. Grow up!
Having a headache now. Maybe because of the weather or maybe because of so many things to think about.
I am trying my best here, but it is not working out. I wonder why? Ok, set, i will go temple today. See how it goes after that, i think i need his guidance on something.

Ok, see ya guys ;)

just tea

People seldom ask me advice. I don't understand why but I give crap advice,still they come to me. One more thing, I have never been in a seriuos relationship before. Don't come asking me for advice on love and relationship. I don't know.Seriously, it is not that i am trying, but it is just that i don't seem to be able to get the feeling whenever i see someone. I am still looking for that someone who is gonna make me go head over heels. My god, I sound so sissy. Damn you devils!

That day, a very interesting topic came up while i was sittin down having tea with few of my close buddies. O, did i mention, it was pick- on - peterz day. I was offended, but hey, they are my frens, and they are talking in front of me, at least that is better,i guess.hmm...

The topic of the day, why peterz doesn't have a girl friend. Honestly, i don't know myself and i don't care. I am happy the way i am and i will be getting a girlfriend when i need one. O shoots, who am i kidding, i just don't feel the love for anyone right now. And i must know, why? why do u need a girlfren, a partner? when all i see around me is problems problems problems is what raised among my frens who are in a relationship. U know whats more yucky, they say that they are not happy in a relationship and make hoohoohaahaa bout it ,but end of the day, who do they run to like a cry baby? their girlfrens. Independent my ass!

I am pretty much happy the way i am, though at times it does get a lil bit depressing but what the heck? I enjoy every moment of my life. When i am alone, i feel more comfortable, no voices over your shoulders to irritate you, no same face everyday til u get so sick of u feel like vomiting.
No one to nag at you to do stuffs and no one to depend on you. Thats the best part, you have your frens to depend on, you family for support, then why do you need someone to depend on you? Live your life as it is. No tension, no problems it is just you you you. AHHHHHH....

So, to all my frens who are wondering why i don't have a girlfren, i am leaving my life, not others and to stress it out " I AM LIVING A HAPPY LIFE BY MY OWN" I don't need someone else to mess up my whole life again.

Hehehe, i got this one statement which got me laughing my heads off. Someone asked wether i am gay for not having a girlfren. Well, to clarify everything... I would like to state this here and who ever reads this, please spread it around, i am not gay, i am as straight as any normal male would be. Just because i have no interest in relationship, love, sex and all load of other crap, doesn't mean i am gay. For a start, guys as in male specimen of human being makes me vomit too. Go figure.

Thats all for a fruitful writting of mine for this time. Wow, i am proud of myself. Who ever need further clarification do drop by a comment. I will entertain it if it is relevant. If not, bugger you too.

peace out.

Confusion

I am so confused. Give me one good reason why i should not write what i feel like writting on my blog? Can't give any? Thought so! Why do people get so scared to write what they feel like writting on their blog? It is your own personal space on the internet. What is stopping you?
I write what i feel like writing. I don't care if people get offended or even if people get happy their name came out on my blog.
Why do people say that it is your fault if you don't keep in touch with them? It is always your fault. But in reality, they don't care either. If they really want to keep in touch, why do they expect you to keep in touch with them? Where is the effort they put in? i don't see it.
So, don't expect me to do anything if you don't do anything. This is a matter of ego.And.. i am a egoistic person. Live with it!
Ok people, any comments? be free but remember, you get back what you put in. Keep in touch or just get out of my face.
peace out...