Misteri bola ping pong

Amer berumur 15 adalah seorang anak yang pendiam. Diasungguh misteri. Bapanya seorang pesara tentera, kinimemulakan perniagaan kecil-kecilan, manakala ibunyatelah pun meninggal dunia sejak dia berumur 8 tahun.Tinggal lah Amer dan bapanya berdua. Bapanya seorangyang amat tegas dan mengharapkan Amer berjaya didalampelajaran. Setelah bertungkus lumus belajar akhirnya Amermendapat kesemua A dalam setiap mata pelajarannyaketika menduduki peperiksaan PMR. Suatu petang bapanya memanggil Amer. "Bapak banggadengan pencapaian engkau, Amer, apa kau nak sebagaihadiah kerana cemerlang didalam PMR? Basikal?" Amer hanya membalas "Saya hanya nakkan 2 biji bolaping pong aje bapak." Bapaknya hairan. Tapi dia tetap menunaikan hajatanaknya. Dia lantas membelikan anaknya 2 biji bolapingpong. Masa kian berlalu, ki! ni Amer mendapat kejayaandidalam SPM, dia mendapat 10A dan diterima dijurusankejuruteraan mekanikal disebuah university terkemukadi Malaysia. Bapanya bangga dan bertanyakan apakahhadiah yang Amer mahukan. Amer masih tetap mahukan 2biji ping pong. Bapanya bertambah hairan, namun diatetap membelikan Amer 2 biji bola ping pong. Semasa di university, Amer terus berjaya dan berjayadan dia telah mendapat award sebagai pelajar terbaikdi Universitinya. Kejayaan demi kejayaan yangditerimanya dia masih tetap mahukan 2 biji bolapingpong dari bapanya. Bapanya terfikir yang dia mempunyai anak yang kurangcentre, tetapi masih berbangga. Akhirnya dia telah diterima bekerja di salah sebuahsyarikat engineering yang terbesar di Malaysia yangbertaraf international. Bapa Amer makin gembira lantasdia masih bertanyakan apa yang Amer hendak. Amer masihtetap mahukan bola ping pong. "Kau ni, asik2 bola pingpong! Sudah!! Perniagaan bapakmakin maju dan bapak hadiahkan kau sebuah KeretaMercedes SLK Compressor" Namun, Amer tetap gembira dengan pemberian bapanyatanpa banyak soal. Pada hari dia mendapat kereta tersebut, dia keluaruntuk men'test' keretanya. Namun, apalah malang Amer,dia mendapat kemalangan yang teruk di Highway KM 1.24dan dimasukkan ke ICU. Bapa Amer amat terperanjat dengan kemalangan tersebut.Semasa di ICU, bapanya menjaga Amer dengan penuh kasihsayang. Tetapi nampaknya Amer tadak harapan naksembuh, lalu Amer mengeluarkan kesemua bola pingpongnya dan menyerahkan pada bapanya. "Bapak... ameklah bola ping pong yang saya simpanni...." kata Amer kesakitan. "Amer, selama ni ko asik mintak bola ping pong aje,ape ke paedahnya" kata bapaknya "Sebenarnya ada misteri disebalik bola ping pongini..." kata Amer "Apa dia" tanya bapa Amer Tetapi belum sempat Amer memberitahu meisterinya, Amermenghembuskan nafasnya yang terakhir... Bapa Amer menjadi separuh gila mengenangkan misterianaknya. Apakah misteriya? Anda nak tau????














Ianya tetap misteri kerana tajuk cerita ini adalahMisteri Bola Ping Pong dan akan menjadi misteriselamanya

If you watch the above images from your seat in frontof the computer, Mr.Angry is on the left, and Mrs.Calmis on the right. Get up from your seat, and move back 12 feet, and PRESTO!! they switch places!! I believe this illusion was created by PhillippeG.Schyns and Aude Oliva of the Univ. of Glasgow. This proves that we may not be seeing what's actuallythere, all the time!!

Cool pill,i need one!

Celebrities when they were young

To be remembered

Love

She walks in beauty
Like the night of cloudless climes..
and starry skies..
And all that's best of dark and bright
meet in her aspect..
And her eyes..

By Byron ( my favourite love quote master)

Not in a good state of mind

Try to picture this situation. I was doing my work as usual, my boss walks out of his room and starts to talk to my collegue. Suddenly a fax came in and since the fax machine is at my reach, i took the fax and started reading it. It was a purchase order for nero7 from singapore. I showed it to my boss and he said WE need to bring it down to singapore. I was like, ok. Then he started discussing something with my collegue and he said, i have to make two trips then. I kept quiet didn't want to ask more. Then, he himself told me that they are (as in my collegue and my boss) have to go down to singapore for a meeting. The worst part is i have to go down with him to deliver goods and came back on the same day. They on the other hand, taking a flight down staying one night and then coming back! How nice.
I suddenly hate the job i am doing, hate my boss, hate everything!
The dialogue session is on 24th and my friend might come down on that day. I can't take off on that day! Ok, then thought can take off the next day but damn need to go singapore! What the fuck?!? The rest in the office can take off as they like and i can't? This sucks
I feel bad for my friend. I feel bad for myself. I need a fresh breath. My blood is upstairs and i don't know how long it is going to be there. Fuck fuck fuck.

Life is never fair

No man with the right set of mind would be happy with what he has. This includes me. Why everyone else in the world has all the fun and i don't? It is like a curse or something. Or maybe i just don't put much of an efford to change the situation.
I am caught up with work like almost every other day. I need money, no doubt but my sosial life is going down the drain. I thought and i tell it to myself everyday that i have the best life in the whole world but it has elapsed as i see, observe and read what is going on with other's life. I am trying my best to take it in a positive way.
I have the best job in the world, wonderful boss, great working enviroment,my family loves me, my friends are gems but there is something missing. I don't seem to be able to find that. Many may experience the same.
I love traveling, i really do. But i am not capable to do it regularly as for the amount of dough i have with me. Plus, all the company trips are bullshit when it comes to my company. So, when i got the oppurtunity to go to kota bahru, i was soooooo happy and i enjoyed, really i did.
I have this urge to get what i want which others have. But i am not just as lucky as others are i suppose. Everything seems to be moderate for me which is not good enough. I am not the kind of person who gets away with moderate stuff. I want the best.
I realise god s helping me but he is doing something which comes with the concequences that i don't want to face. Why can't he just be straight forward? Like give me something with nothing as after-effect. Life sucks!
To make things worst, i got a message yesterday from a friend who asked me to call back. I did, and got more depressing news. That really made my day suck the whole day yesterday. TOday morning it started rain when i was on my way to work and it is still rainning.
I realize that when you feel like crap, everything else in your sight looks like crap as well and i mean eveything. You just couldn't care about anything or anyone. Everything moves reaaaaalllllyyy slow and you just want to shout!

ok there you go, one depressing day in my life. Enjoy life while you can, tommorow is never certain.

Kelante part 2

Now lets go to the ceremony. It all started with all of us getting up to the temple. Then, the priest (ayer) started some prayers. Both parents had to do some things like putting flowers, yellow rice and both mothers had to make pillayar from the yellow stuff that they had( which i have no idea what the name is). The bride walked in with the bridesmaid. Ramesh's mother passed a new saree for her to wear and she went off. The prayers went on. After like 15 minutes, she came back. Then both the bride and groom had to go through the same process as what the parents did ( except the pillayar part). Then both the parents exchanged "dulang" filled with coconut,"sirih" and bitternut ( i guess). After that, the bride and groom exchanged rings. Abeautiful bouquet was given to them by ramesh's cousin after they got blessings from both side parents.They walked around the temple and sat in front of the alter. There, they had prayers for the god. End of ceremony. Photography session started!
As i was taking like hundreds of photographs, the rest of the people went down to have their dinner in the hall. I came across few really pretty girls! Never knew kelantan had pretty girls, actually never knew kelantan had indians in the first place!
The dinner was fantastic (all vegetarian though :( ) After dinner as usual i had to smoke! But don't know where to go! So, i walked around and went to the back alley of the temple. There, i light up a ciggie. Few malay fellows were walikng by looking at me one kind. Scary though. Then, these two indian guys from the engagement walked towards me and stood right behind me and started discussing this. " You don't cause any problem here, listen to me hey listen to me" one guy said to the other. The other one said " no, no , no i have to do it!" and they had an argument and they settled down after that and walked off. I had no idea what the hell they were talking.
One by one people started to leave. I, ramesh and two of his cousins went up to the temple again to collect back the "dulangs". Then we left as well.
Thats all short and sweet huh? heheehhe .I really enjoyed the trip. i think i am a travelling person. anybody knows anyone who does charity by sending others to travel, call me ya. hehehehe
chao guys!

Kelante

It was the third day of Deepavali, the first of raya. Pukul 5.15 pagi, i was awaken by a sms from jimpack(ramesh). I will be there by 5.45a.m. Kelam kabut i got up and went to take my shower and prepared myself for the journey to kota bahru. Oh, it was jimpack's brother's engagement and i was suppose to be the "official photographer". Yeah yeah i know, half of you are laughing your heads off. Went to kepong first to meet all the others who gonna join the few hours journey to kota bahru. Jimpack came with his mom and brother(who was getting engaged) to fetch me.
So, we all met up in kepong first in jimpack's aunty's house. I realised that i was the only one who was not a relative there but all of them were so sporting and fun that somehow, they got me fittin' in. There,they had idli for breakfast, which i don't eat so i was happy with just a cup of teh 'o. Then everyone were busy packing stuff and arranging who is going in which car. There were one kia carnival, one honda cr-v, one waja and one perdana. I had the oppurtunity to go on the carnival which happens to be my first time getiin' into this mpv. It was soo spacious and comfy. I sat at the back with jimpack,the driver was his cousin,his dad(jimpack's uncle) sat next to him and his mother(jimpack's aunty) sat at the second row with jimpack's uncle. It was a very tiring jouney, these three cars were basically racing each other on the road. no one went below 120km/j except for carnival as we stopped few times.
We stopped at gua musang for lunch. It was a chinese shop and had lil' bit of food just to cover the hunger. I realised i didn't eat much the whole jouney. THen, we left gua musang to hit the roads. It tooks us two more hours to reach kota bahru. But this time, i was in the cr-v. Jimpack drove the cr-v, with his cousin next to him. i sat at the back with two of his other cousins.Jimpack was driving at 140km/j all the way! When we reached Kota Bahru, two cars were lost ( including ours.hahaha) Met the perdana and waja in front of the kota bahru hospital. Oh, i forgot, a harrier joined us after lunch.It was jimpack's brother's boss. We took the perdana with us as the waja wanted to wait for someone in front of the hospital.As jimpack is familiar with kota bahru, he led the way to the renaisance where the harrier who was lost too waittin. Still no sign of the Carnival. After few minutes, they came.Then we all convoyed to the place where we were suppose to stay, kenchana inn. To our suprise, waja was waitting for us there!
Checked in and i got a room with jimpack and his uncle. Just one night i will adjust. Did i mentioned, it was dreadful, i coulnd't smoke the whole journey as i left my ciggarattes in the beg and it was in the perdana! As everyone checked in, time to smoke! i couldn't take it.So i left the room quietly to the chinese shop below the inn to get a puff. Ahhh..... relieve. it didnt stop there though. It was almost 5.30 and everyone was going down for tea when i was going up to the room! Ok, what the hell, i went for tea as well. After tea, everyone went to their room back. I went to the stairs to have another ciggie. After that, went to the room and hit the bed! I almost close my eyes when jimpack's unle woke us up saying it is time to get ready! *sigh*
Got ready and went down to see the others are still dressing up. Somehow, i had the feeling as though it was my brother or cousin who was getting engaged. That is how they treated me there, as one of their family. :)
I started my work to take photographs when jimpack's aunty came to me and said, ok come here carry this. I was carying a "dulang" which had bananas on them. Hehehe..i felt honoured, i don't know why.Reached the temple to find the groom and the car jimpack was driving went missing! It was 7.30 and everyone started panicking. We all suppose to be at the temple by 7.30.
Calls going there and here and finally they made it! I just left the "dulang" on one of the cars and one girl just came and carried it into the hall.
Let me tell you about the temple. It was like a goverment's building with 'koburam' on top! You know like a office block but this dome on top of it. It was so high tech. The temple was on the first floor. The hall was on the ground where people come to eat after ceremonies.Sorry, didnt get the chance to take pictures of the magnificent temple.

I will continue with the engagement ceremony on my next post. Stay tuned! :)

Annoyed

It is human behaviour to want to help out each other. Sometimes, somethings are better if the involved person does it themselves. This somehow does't get to some people's head. It is not that i am being rude or anything, it is just that I realize people are trying to be nice to me, but factually, i am not the kind of person who ask for help. Instead, i would try to help that person.Only if that person opens the mouth and asks. Don't even dream that i would help you if you don't ask, because thats just ain't me.
It is somehow different when it comes to me. I would do what i feel like doing regardless of the concequences. I don't need someone else to tell me what to do or even wants to help me out. Go deal with your own problem. Leave me alone. I know what i am doing.
What is the deal of telling others how you feel? Isn't that irritating? If it is your personal life, just tell it to yourself dungu! There are things that is better off being your own and not to be publisized. Get real!
It may sound like I am annoyed, yes, indeed i am. I hate ackwardness and i hate when people don't respect my needs and my privacy. I don't come butting in your life, why should you? If i like my life to be messed up, then i will tell you. Til then, stay away please. I am not that type of person.
Somehow, now, my priorities goes solely to my work. It is not easy but i put work on top of everything now. I realised that my responsibility has increased these past few months. I am working my ass-off now and i just need some space to myself. I don't mean that i don't need friends at all, it is just that it is time for me to actually work! If you people have priorities in life, so do i! When i want to do something, no one seem to even care and everyone suddenly has something more important to do. Now, it is just payback time la. U offend me, i make sure you cry!
Whoa, i am kina mad aren't i? hmm..

I love all my friends, truly. I just don't want to be, how do i put it, hmm.. well, I am independent enough to take care of myself. Seriously, I just get annoyed when people do something i don't like. It is just that! O god help me here! I also hate it when whatever i write here to be questioned back when we meet in person. Whatever i write here is how i feel for the day or at that time. So, i don't feel comfortable talking about it outside cyberspace. If you want, you can comment and i will try to answer. Other than that, please don't ask me anything if you see me in person, please..


Now, i feel better.

p/s : no offence anyone.

:(

Kebusyan yang terlampau

I know this might sound unlikely me, but i have been going back late from office everyday this week. Why? Because i have more than i can handle piled up work. *Sigh*
I don't like it. I hate working.
I haven't been having much time to spend with my family nor my friends. Sad sad life.
I hate it when people give untrue comments on the work i do. Well, even if it true i just can't handle it. I get really angry but then i won't do anything because i am a type of person who doesn't show my anger (most of the time that is).
This lady who called me up asking wether i do editing for photos and adding some graphics to it especially on wedding photographs. I said ok and went to kajang to meet her up. This lady was in her mid 40s i guess. She has one son and a daughter. She actually ticked me off few times. First, she said my work is not so good. (that's bullshit!) how dare she? Then , she said that the graphics that she let me use has been copyrighted. (bullshit again) which later she told me she scanned from magazines. Then the most annoying part of them all, she said she is willing to pay me rm1.50 for each page that i do! no, seriously, rm1.50? even a student wouldnt want to do that!
What the hell she thinks i am? some kind of cheap beggar?
I spent my whole day today to come up with this design to show her. I think it looks average (much better than the things she showed me!) Just to prove to her, i am not as bad as she thinks i am!
Damn, sometimes people can be soooo irritating man! Now, i am going to go and meet her in a while and show her the new design. Lets see what she says. And definetely i am going to say it to her face, rm1.50 , bugger off!
My designs are worth more than that!

Inspirational

I did it myself for self-motivation :)

The Sign!

Runaway Bride

How would you feel if your daughter ran away from home to get married to someone you know that can't keep her happy?
That is what happened to my aunty's family.(My father's, sister's family)
It was kind of shocking as i know my cousin very well. She would not do such a thing. It caught me by suprise! This morning, as i was waking up to go to work, we had a phone call. It was my aunty crying like a little girl who lost her way home. She was crying to my grandma for what has happened. My grandma on the other hand, started crying too.
Ok, now to the main story. The place my aunty is staying, KAPAR is well known for indians from the darkside. She was against moving there ever since my uncle bought a house there. But she and her family were forced to move there. Time went by and two of my cousins got married and lived hapily. This thing happened to their youngest daughter. They were asking her to get married as she is 26 now. But she said i will get married when i finish her studies. So, being understanding parents, they said ok. Then, yesterday, this cousin of mine did not come back home from work. They were soo worried. Today morning, my cousin called them and told what happened. As it is my aunty is having health problems. This would definetely make her worst!
It seems, this guy who she is married to, kidnaped her and forced her to get married to him or else, her family will be hurt! It is funny though that my cousin is not so stupid to fall for this kind of things.
Then, my aunty was told that she was (what do u call that thing in english? di pukau) So, she didn't know what was happening and she has no power to stop it. What a bad way to get married to someone. I never thought this would happen to my family.
My grandma was soo sad, she didn't stop crying even when i left home to work. She said, the same thing happened to my aunty(di pukau) long time ago, that she fell sick and would hold her t-shirt and cry every day and night. But in my aunty's case, it was worst. Her husband died in an accident and she was left a widow. Then, she came to concious and came back. But my grandpa chased her away saying he doesn't have a daughter like her. Sad huh? Somehow, she got married to a very good,kind hearted man after that (who is my uncle now) and living hapily ever after.
Another shock came to me few days back, my cousin who is one year younger than me is being forced to get married. This is the sms chat i had with her.
shuresh : Oi, apo khabar?
cousin : baik...............alamhdulilah
shuresh : ahaha, eja pun salah. that bad huh?
cousin : sorrylah, fikiran ku celaru sekarang
shuresh : chill. everything happens for a reason

I don't know what the hell is wrong with my family. What the hell is happening? Everything is moving so fast. Damn! Is it just my family or the whole world!

Cheated

Isn't it funny when you plan something and something else happens? I have so many blogs that has this topic on. Somehow it all comes down to one, numero uno solution. Never plan. :)
I don't plan. I know when i plan, it will never happen or somrthing else happens. *Sigh*
Jim is not in the office today, so is putri. It is getting so regular now that these people just take days off to their convinience. I don't feel like i am working in a office anymore,serious. It is like a hang out place. I have not much office work to do, so concentrating on my freelance work and this blog of course. When i come to office i feel like i am coming home back. free internet access, do what i like doing, designing, coffee, cigarattes, lunch and music. What else you need in an office to make you feel like home? Hmmm...
My boss never pressure me on doing anything( like there are any work to do anyways!) I don't need to apply for anual leave as i can take it anytime i want. N o mcs. Get my salary full every month. This is like everyone's dream job. I have a big feeling somehow, my boss gonna go back australia soon and leave the office empty. So, i would be out of job.HAHAHA
Been saving my money as i know my salary never comes on the same date every month because my boss issues check rather then auto debit it to my bank account. So, i must be prepared. Did not pay my car loan last month because afraid i would have need the money for these people's convo.
Why am i feeling so down now? I don't know! Nothing concerns me but i am feeling it! People say when someone close to you feel sad, u feel it too. Damn.
GOD has done much for me. The things that i want to be done ,won't be granted but other stuffs that i don't ask i get. Why ah??
I have a feeling i am becoming a loner. I don't hang out anymore, it is usally, work home work home again. How sad.
Ok, wanna continue my work.
Peace out.

Signs

Hahaha, my virtual friend sent me this email. Cool shit!

Lonely..i'M so lonely...

Work is getting to my nerves. I regret taking the account into matter. Tu lah...nak berlagak, thinking i can do it. Now customer not satisfied. macam mana sekarang?
One more thing that i have been cracking my head is the design for the stupid brochure that my boss asked to do. Some airlines thingy. He is soo old fashion man. Sigh..
Haven't been going for tea or supper since prem's away to the camp or something. Left me, suresh and lailo. Vasu busy ka pahang, terengganu dan kelantan. Why do i have a feeling he is gonna get married to a malay girl..hmmm...tak tau la...
Went for tea with mande and congo yesterday. Reached around 5.30 and left the place at 7. See how long is my tea time? hehehe wat to do? thats the time i can meet them all. But didnt get to meet bob because he was sleeping. James was coming back from work so didnt get to meet him either.
The weather is making me sick. Kejap hujan kejap panas.Hm.... bila nak salji?
Putri and jim are out to MITV. Me left with kavitha in the office. Now, kavitha just left to go for some meeting with the developer of her new house. Now, left me. Got loads of work but malas nyerrr nak buat.
I am financially unstable now. End of the month..where is my check!!??!!
Planin to go to penang this weekend . see la how it goes.
I dunno why, but suddenly, feel like i have so many things to think bout. Is this wat the call stress?
Was watching d. h. yesterday, eva long**** is hot man( sorry i forgot her name) in her lingerie yesterday.WOW!
Starting to hate the traveling to work and back. Makes me tired and it takes me freakin 1 hour to come to the office and one hour back, so basically i am working two hours extra and still underpaid. how sad.
I am out of credit. So, if i dont send any forwarded message...aiya, just waitlah til i get my salary.
I know that would be the indication. Im ean when i send forwarded messages, people know i got credit. Thats because i forward all the junks i get to people. hehehe I believe that would be a good way to keep in touch. don't u think?
haven't watch any movies for ages. No time la katakan.
i got one great story to tell u guys, but i will keep it for the next post. hehehe

chow!

A brand new revolution

Hardship

It is hard to do something when you know you can not actually do much. As a friend, i feel useless if i can't help my friend on any matter. Reasonly, when my fren is still having his disputes, I am standing here doing nothing. What the hell am i suppose to do? I have power to do anything dispite being a good buddy. The temple trip didn't work out. I went to two temple, asking for forgiveness and making request from him. But he has not done aything to make the situation better. One wise man who shares a same name as moi said this " U should not ask the god what u want, ask him what should i do to get what i want". And then, he will show you the way.
I did exactly that! Nothing happened, he didn;t show me anything. I told him straight to his face, you give me what i want i give you my hair. I did! So, if i get what i asked for, i will be bold for three years to come. Somehow, i doubt that. :(
Watched "ayah pin's" cd. It so embarassing and i raged with anger when i saw a bunch of indians praying to him. In batu caves! during deepavali! and they did some special pooja for him in a temple. Thats ridiculous! Whta tghe hell is wrong with these indians?? To tell you honestly, the people i saw worshipping him were the malays and indians. NO CHINESE.Is it because indians are easily influenced or is it because they would do anything for money? Hmm... a good thing to ponder upon...
Have this craving for french fries lately. Mcdonald's fries to be specific. I practically stop and buy fries from mcd everytime i pass by it.No matter where and wether i am hungry or not. There goes my weight shooting up high!
When you call someone a "pig". Is it offensive or is it ok? I had a crush on this girl who gets all tensed up everytime someone called her pig, dog or by the name of any animals. But ironically, her bf calls her piglet now and she gets excited. See how people change? Maybe for good and maybe it is for worst!
I was glad and thrilled to get comments from Uma for the previous posts. Suprised? The hell yeah! Felt so honoured that she reads my blog.:) and actually enjoys reading it! Ha!
My virtual fren going through tough times as well. I was ther last time she cried after that tragic incident. To think about it , it was funny enough, she was trying to hide it from me. I mean, she was saying nothing is worng nothing is wrong, when infact tears where filling up in her eyes. But, this time, you would do great! I have faith in you!
I have enough problems to think about now. I just realise that my career path is going no where, as well as my personal life. But both, was my choice. Sometimes, when you are driving alone or even watching television, u tend to think bout all the action you have taken and start regreting for it! That's me!
After all this, I still think I am right! Always been! and always will! ha ha ha (vain, as putri calls me!)

peas out

the best picture ever

THE BEST PICTURE EVER TAKEN. TOKEN OF FRIENSHIP. THANKS GUYS.

Random thoughts

It is kind of sad when you get separated with your loved ones even for a minute. But it would be even worst if you get stuck with them every second. So, what is the best duration for you to have a comforatable living with your loved ones?
Had a big argument with my grandma over the weekend. She is soo old-fashioned. I can't digest that. O by the way, "digest" is my current favourite word.
My dad suggested to go for a medical check up as my gastric is getting worst. i Have pain in my stomache at least once a day.
Met up with kartik and accompanied him for his interview in glenmarie which coincidently opposite lailo's working place. He didn't know such company existed the night before when we asked him. Funny? That's lailo! :))
Vasu has this tendency to irritate me everytime he sees me and i don't understand why. But he has always been a good friend and an understanding one. Luv him though.
Prem, wat can we say bout prem...he reads my blog. Thats like the coolest thing anyone can do.hehehe,he is currently busy with his work,comes back late but still finds the time to meet up for supper. thanks dei ;)
Suresh the "non-drinking,non-swearing, goodie boy" (see how i highlighted those words?) well he is nothing like that now. Black label was rather strong for him, if you know what i mean?hehe
I realise one thing bout myself, if i start to hate something or someone, it is pretty hard for me to actually forgive the person or forget what happened. If you are trying to patch things up or even try to be friends with me, forget it, i don't give a damn and no i don't want to patch things up.
I don't need someone like you in my life. I have my frens. a small circle but fun to be in it.
I have my best friend. :) and i have my family. Even though how much i get irritated with all of these people, it still comes down to one thing, i love them all.
I came across this really intersting blog. I know the person. Funny enough, it does make me laugh how people put things together and try to be who they are not. Grow up!
Having a headache now. Maybe because of the weather or maybe because of so many things to think about.
I am trying my best here, but it is not working out. I wonder why? Ok, set, i will go temple today. See how it goes after that, i think i need his guidance on something.

Ok, see ya guys ;)

just tea

People seldom ask me advice. I don't understand why but I give crap advice,still they come to me. One more thing, I have never been in a seriuos relationship before. Don't come asking me for advice on love and relationship. I don't know.Seriously, it is not that i am trying, but it is just that i don't seem to be able to get the feeling whenever i see someone. I am still looking for that someone who is gonna make me go head over heels. My god, I sound so sissy. Damn you devils!

That day, a very interesting topic came up while i was sittin down having tea with few of my close buddies. O, did i mention, it was pick- on - peterz day. I was offended, but hey, they are my frens, and they are talking in front of me, at least that is better,i guess.hmm...

The topic of the day, why peterz doesn't have a girl friend. Honestly, i don't know myself and i don't care. I am happy the way i am and i will be getting a girlfriend when i need one. O shoots, who am i kidding, i just don't feel the love for anyone right now. And i must know, why? why do u need a girlfren, a partner? when all i see around me is problems problems problems is what raised among my frens who are in a relationship. U know whats more yucky, they say that they are not happy in a relationship and make hoohoohaahaa bout it ,but end of the day, who do they run to like a cry baby? their girlfrens. Independent my ass!

I am pretty much happy the way i am, though at times it does get a lil bit depressing but what the heck? I enjoy every moment of my life. When i am alone, i feel more comfortable, no voices over your shoulders to irritate you, no same face everyday til u get so sick of u feel like vomiting.
No one to nag at you to do stuffs and no one to depend on you. Thats the best part, you have your frens to depend on, you family for support, then why do you need someone to depend on you? Live your life as it is. No tension, no problems it is just you you you. AHHHHHH....

So, to all my frens who are wondering why i don't have a girlfren, i am leaving my life, not others and to stress it out " I AM LIVING A HAPPY LIFE BY MY OWN" I don't need someone else to mess up my whole life again.

Hehehe, i got this one statement which got me laughing my heads off. Someone asked wether i am gay for not having a girlfren. Well, to clarify everything... I would like to state this here and who ever reads this, please spread it around, i am not gay, i am as straight as any normal male would be. Just because i have no interest in relationship, love, sex and all load of other crap, doesn't mean i am gay. For a start, guys as in male specimen of human being makes me vomit too. Go figure.

Thats all for a fruitful writting of mine for this time. Wow, i am proud of myself. Who ever need further clarification do drop by a comment. I will entertain it if it is relevant. If not, bugger you too.

peace out.

Confusion

I am so confused. Give me one good reason why i should not write what i feel like writting on my blog? Can't give any? Thought so! Why do people get so scared to write what they feel like writting on their blog? It is your own personal space on the internet. What is stopping you?
I write what i feel like writing. I don't care if people get offended or even if people get happy their name came out on my blog.
Why do people say that it is your fault if you don't keep in touch with them? It is always your fault. But in reality, they don't care either. If they really want to keep in touch, why do they expect you to keep in touch with them? Where is the effort they put in? i don't see it.
So, don't expect me to do anything if you don't do anything. This is a matter of ego.And.. i am a egoistic person. Live with it!
Ok people, any comments? be free but remember, you get back what you put in. Keep in touch or just get out of my face.
peace out...

Illusion mate!

Horny

AHH..i got ur attention now. I am so happy now. I don't know why but helping others make me happy.Especially if they are my friends. I know sometimes i just go crazy doing stuffs that no normal human being with right set of mind would think of doing. I also have to confess that i have been hiding stuff from people. I know it is wrong but i can't help it. You guys will find out sooner or later. Kavitha just told me that tommorow is jim's birthday and asked to get a cakebut damn i am broke here, doesn't she care?? Now i have to ask my grandma for money first and pay her back later. I am still figuring out how the hell am i gonnna pay my credit card bill! It has increased so badly and man..i am going to get it nicely from the bank people. I was so crazy, i bought a digital camera and a house!
Damn i am hungry. My friend just called and told that his flight has been canceled so i have to go fetch him tommorow morning instead of today evening.Waitting for mama's call. Wanted to go print something for him in sunway. O yeah, i am still feel stupid to go get my eyebrow pierced.What was i thinking?!? Maybe because no one can stop me once i set my mind on something. I pretty much don't care what people think,say or even talk behind my back. If i feel like doing it, I will do it. Don't try to act smart and try to advice me.I won't listen :)
Was going through jac's blog. Kind of missing her but don't know what the reason for. We never got along, i mean we do get along but end up arguing bout stuffs that don't even mean a thing.
Mimi oh mimi...where r u? Got a gift for mimi, ju , geena, sumi and jac. If you guys want ur gifts then meet me muahahaha
Today is sumi's birthday! I called her to wish but that psyco is not answering her phone. So, if you ever come across this blog, Happy Birthday!
I am sooo sad that i can't go to penang with geena. Ifelt so bad for turning the plan down. I know geena was soo looking forward to it. Sorry geena. R u avoiding me or something?
Putri is leaving eraly today cause she has to go fetch her grandma from the airport. So, bye putri!
Ok lah, i think i have wrote enough here. Maybe i continue some toher time. Before i stop, there's a thing i heard on the radio yesterday. The dj asked wether you can touch your elbow with your toungue? I can't for sure, so you guys try ok. But don't do it in front of people or they will be thinking you are trying to play with yourself by licking it.! hahahahaha (goes well with the title though..:P)

B A N A N A S

Hey my ever so loyal fans...hehehe been missing for a while eh? Nothing, it is just that so much things happen in my life in such a short time...*sigh*

met with an accident, had to go to the police station make a report. Got compounded 15o bucks! can you believe it?? it was not even my fault! malaysian goverment sucks!

Got my eye-brow pierced...woo hooo...it was not as painful as i thought it would be.

Been to places...jb ...etc. hehehe Spent so much money that i am broke now...muahahaha

Bought a house, just a small one for me and my would-be (god knows where is she now..mauahahaha) Iknow it is crazy but i felt like it. It would only be ready in 2007 so i have waaaayyy more time to figure out and save money for it.O yeah, by the way it is in puchong.

Ok, theres more but will tell you guys later la....yeah man one more thing....the list of people i hate has increased...man i need more friends not enemies!!

Hey guys, one more thing, i have started my own fotopages...go and check it out ok?
it is at : http://shuresh.fotopages.com/

Til then my frenz, tc and to my virtual fren, will message u once i have credit ok?

Peace out

pressured

i am currently undergoing this programme to prevent stress in my life. It is not helping and instead making it worst!

iSOLATED

Hello people! It has been a while since I updated my blog. Well, been busy with work...freelancing stuff, moving office,travelling from home to work,spending time with family and friends and etc.
Moving office was so damn tiring, but I think it was worth it, I mean we now work in an apartment/villa that has been transformed into an office. It way more comforting than the one we were before.
I have been busy with freelancing stuff .Spending most of my time with work work work nowadays. Sad...:( I don't have enough time for my friends now. But I try to keep in touch.
Have been very much financially challenged this month! Ihaven't pay for my car for two months. Lend my friend 500 bucks, need to take my road tax and insurance for the car and my my.....*sigh* need a raise! that's all I can say...:P
Oh yeah, I am staying in my office for the next one month! I know, it's phatetic and people say I don't have a life! How can u stay in your office?? It's like staying in hell and don't want to leave! Well, I love my job, so it is not so bad plus I get some time alone with myself. Time to think over so many things, finish up unfinished things and well, just away from people. Sometimes we need that to refresh ourselves from the normal routine life we have. It makes you realise so many things. Well in my case, i stay in my office...it does sound sad! hahahahaa
I am actually taking some time off my work(freelancing) to write this. Since I herad rumours that there are many people out there often check my blog to see my update..yes you! i was definetely talking bout u...hahahha gotcha! Niewayz, to all that reads my blog, thanks for the support and I promise I will update my blog as long as I have the time and internet to do so. Enjoy reading and don't just read give comments. Oh come on don't be lazy! U came this far, wat would it take for you to write a comment?
I have been following american idol and man can bo sing! carie is not so bad either. My current favourite tv show is "lost" If you have the chance, catch the show on axn. It is a good show. worth watching.
Ok boys and girls. bed time! I think I will continue tommorowla to do my work. too sleepy...:P

GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE!

i love u...yes u!...yes u!!!

Afrikaans : Ek is lief vir jou Ek het jou lief

Albanian : Te dua

Amharic : Afekrishalehou

Arabic : Ana Behibak (to a male) Ana Behibek (to a female)

Basc : Nere Maitea

Bavarian : I mog di narrisch gern

Bengali : Ami tomAy bhAlobAshi

Berber : Lakh tirikh

Bicol : Namumutan ta ka

Bulgarian : Obicham te

Cambodian : kh_nhaum soro_lahn nhee_ah Bon sro lanh oon

Cantonese : Ngo oi ney

Catalan : T'estim (mallorcan) T'estime (valencian) T'estimo (catalonian) T'estim molt (I love you a lot)

Chinese : Wo ie ni (Manderin, Cantonese)

Croatian :
Volim te (most common), or Ja te volim (less common)

Czech :
miluji te

Danish :
Jeg elsker dig

Dutch :
Ik hou van jou

Estonian :
Mina armastan sind

Esperanto :
Mi amas vin

Persian (Farsi) :
Tora dust midaram

Flemish :
Ik zie oe geerne

Finnish :
Mina" rakastan sinua

French :
Je t'aime

Friesian :
Ik bin fereale op dy Ik ha^ld fan dy (Most commonly used phrase) (the ^ is above the a)

Gaelic :
Ta gra agam ort

German :
Ich liebe Dich I mog Di ganz arg! (Suebian: South German dialekt.)

Greek :
S' ayapo

Gujarati(a dialect of India)
"Tane Prem Karoo Choo"

Hausa :
Ina sonki

Hebrew :
aNEE oHEIVET oTKHA (female to male) aNEE oHEIV otAKH (male to female) Ani ohev at (man to woman) Ani ohevet atah (woman to man)

Hindi:
Mein Tumse Pyar Karta Hoon

Hokkien :
Wa ai lu

Hopi :
Nu' umi unangwa'ta

Hungarian :
Szeretlek te'ged

Icelandic :
?g elska ßig

Indonesian :
Saya cinta padamu Saya Cinta Kamu Aku tjinta padamu Saja kasih saudari

Italian :
Ti amo

Irish :
taim i' ngra leat

Japanese :
Kimi o ai shiteru

Kazakh :
Men seny jaksy kuremyn

Kiswahili :
Nakupenda

Korean :
Tangsinul sarang ha yo

Kurdish :
Ez te hezdikhem

Latin :
Te amo Vos amo

Lao :
Khoi huk chau

Latvian :
Es Tev milu

Lingala :
Nalingi yo

Lithuanian:
Ash miliu tave

Luo :
Aheri

Madrid lingo :
Me molas, tronca

Malay/Indonesian :
Saya cintakan awak(awak=kamu=you) Aku sayang engkau (engkau=kamu=you)

Malay :
Saya cintamu Saya sayangmu

Maltese:
Inhobbok!

Mandarin :
Wo ai ni

Mohawk :
Konoronhkwa

Navajo :
Ayor anosh'ni

Ndebele :
Niyakutanda

Norwegian :
Jeg elsker deg (Bokmaal) Eg elskar deg (Nynorsk)

Pakistani :
Muje se mu habbat hai

Persian :
Tora dost daram

Pilipino :
Mahal Kita Iniibig Kita

Polish :
Ja Cie Kocham or Kocham Cie (Pronounced Yacha kocham)

Portuguese :
Eu te amo

Romanian :
Te iu besc

Russian :
Ya lyublyu tebya Ya vas lyublyu

Scot Gaelic :
Tha gra\dh agam ort

Serbian :
Volim te (most common), or Ja te volim" (less common)

Shona :
Ndinokuda

Sioux :
Techihhila

Slovak :
lubim ta

Slovene :
ljubim te

Spanish :
Te amo

Swahili :
Nakupenda

Swedish :
Jag a"lskar dig

Swiss-German :
Ch'ha di ga"rn

Tagalog :
Mahal kita

Taiwanese :
Gwa ai lee

Tamil
Naan Unnai Kadhalikiren

Thai :
Phom Rak Khun Ch'an Rak Khun

Tunisian :
Ha eh bak

Turkish :
Seni seviyorum!

Urdu :
Mujhe tumse muhabbat hai

Vietnamese :
Anh ye^u em (man to woman) Em ye^u anh (woman to man) Toi yeu em

Vlaams :
Ik hou van jou

Welsh :
'Rwy'n dy garu di. Yr wyf i yn dy garu di (chwi)

Yiddish :
Ikh hob dikh lib

Zazi :
Ezhele hezdege (sp?)

Zuni :
Tom ho' ichema

A friend sent me these meaningful messages...just wanna share it with u guys

Don't be too good, I will miss you.Don't be too caring, I might like you.Don't be too sweet, I might fall for you.It's hard for me to love you when you won't love meafter all...
Bottomline :A person who makes me loves him/her is actually aperson who loves me more than I love him/her.


If someone comes into your life and becomes a part ofyou but for some reasons he couldn't stay, don't crytoo much...Just be glad that your paths crossed and somehow he made you happy even for a while.
Bottomline :Time will tell, If he's yours he will come back


Don't throw your back to love when it's already infront of you, don't drive it away from you because if you did, someday you'll think again why you let love fly away when it was once next to you.
Bottomline :Treasure the one who loves you, it's not easy to find a person who loves you. It's always more valuable to have a sincere heart.


The greatest regrets in our lives are the risks we did not take. If you think something will make you happy, go for it. Remember that we pass this way only once.
Bottomline :Time don't wait. If you think you might have found theright one, treasure him/her. Don't let he/she goaway.


Don't let fear hold you back.Give it a try else you might regret later...No one other than yourself knows what can truly makeyou happy.

Two tear drops were floating down the river. One teardrop said to the other,"I'm the teardrop of a girl who loved a man and lost him. Who are you?"..."I'm the teardrop of the man who regret letting a girlgo..."
Bottomline :Nobody will sympathise a person who constantly let chances passes by without making any efforts to salvage. We normally don't realise how important our loved and closed ones are until they left us, we'll start reminiscences which results to misery


There are so many stars in the sky but only some are radiant enough to catch your attention. Among those that you chose to ignore is that one star which is willing to continue shining for you. Even if your glance remains elsewhere.
Bottomline :Phrase 1 :The present person who you are with for the time being may/may not be the one you truly love.
Phrase 2 :Should a person who knows that he/she can't be with you for the time being and yet still continue to love you whole heartedly for who you are is touching.Think about it.


It's so funny how we set qualifications for the rightperson to love, while at the back of our minds we knowthat the person we truly love will always be anexception.
Bottomline :We are critical especially to the one we like or lovebecause we want them to be the best, constantlyseeking for perfection, which should be worked out byboth parties in a relationship and not one party alone>to>shoulder the burden.


Love can make you happy although often times it hurts.But love is only special if you give it to which it'sworth.
Bottomline :If you found someone who truly appreciates you, He/she>deserves more of your love.


To love is like playing the piano. First, you play bythe rules. Then,you must forget the rules and playfrom the heart.
Bottomline :Trust is important , to trust a person you like / love must first let the person you like/love trust you.Have confident in yourself and the person wholikes/loves you. Never leave them doubts and don'tdoubt what he/she has to give.


What If someone tells you this:I don't believe in courtship. It's just a waste oftime. If I love the person, I'll tell her right away.But for you I will make an exception...just love me>now and I'll court you forever...
Bottomline :Love needs time to realise, there might be love atfirst sight but it takes time to let one graduallydiscover their affection towards another,miss him/herwhen he/she is not around, hope to hear from he/shewhen the person haven't write or call.


It's always better to have found the courage to loveeven if you lose it in the end rather than never foundlove because you were too afraid of the challenge.
Bottomline :Don't give up if you face or think that you havecompetitors. It's always better to try, if you suceed,the reward is more than you can expect.But if youdon't try or don't summon up the courage, you mightlose the one you like/love forever...


You never lose in loving. You only lose in holdingback.
Bottomline :Don't be afraid to tell the person you like/love howmuch you like/love him/her. Let them know, let themn decide and make a decision. The Best thing in life is to tell the person you like/love how important they are to you, by doing so, you feel liberated. And you are proud of yourself because you are responsible to your own feelings. Never betray your own feelings,because only you who suffers, no one else.


The greatest challenge in our life is to find someonewho knows our flaws and differences and yet stillwillingly embraces you with so much love.
Bottomline :Love is a means of self giving and self sacrificing,if he/she knows your flaws and still willing to acceptyou, continue to like/love you as you are or evenmore, boy, you are lucky! This person truly deservesyour love and affection.


The spaces between our fingers were created so thatanother person's fingers could fill them in.
Bottomline :Open your heart, let people love you, never doubttheir intentions,sincerity can be felt by the heart.


When you love, it is not for you to be understood butfor you to understand;not for you to take but for you to be taken; to listen, not to dictate; to sacrifice and not to demand; not to count or measure but to love.Gravity:Keeps you down to earth...Makes your burdensheavier...

END...

We are the music makersAnd we are the dreamer of dreams,Wandering by lone sea-breakers,And sitting by desolate streams;World-losers and world-forsakers,On whom the pale moon gleams:Yet we are the movers and shakersOf the world for ever, it seems.

>>>>=====>>>The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.

>>>=====>"Don't cry because its over, smile because it happened."

finally, i got a chance to take some days off the office. Been sick and tired of staring at the monitor all day long. My boss is in Las Vegas enjoying himself. Kavitha just came back from holiday in penang and pity putri, she hasn't been anywhere except for the regular hang out places she goes with her friends.
CHERATING!!! I know, i know, kinda lame but hey, not always i get to spend time with my frens rite? Plus this (hopefully not!) gonna be the last outing from the apartment. So, i am going to enjoy myself like i have never done it before. I wish i could drive down there since i love driving so much.
In the cc now, prem wanted to use the internet so followed him here and i was bored, dont know wat to do, so i wanted to write something before leaving to cherating tommorow morning.
We have to move away from cyberjaya soon as the letter to evacuate the place has arroved to the office. Hopefully when jim comes back he would still find a place in cyber.
I kinda miss my virtual frenla.Hoy! message me lah, by the way, i am gonna top up my 012 soon :) anything, just message there.
Tried to catch up with the movie industry. Watched chandramukhi, mumbai express, sachein and the pacifier. Cool movies, but then sachien was just crap.
SEPET! that's a good movie but i think the story went too fast, i missed the parts when they actually fall in love. I tot that part they did it too fast.
Was chattin with putri today, eventhough we work in the same office, we prefer chattin through yahoo. She was rellin me to go find a girlfren! i dont know why she said that, but that got me thinking. Maybe im too attached to my frens that i forgot to live my own life. I am pretty sure that pretty soon i will recover as we are not gonna stay together niemore.....*sob* *sob*
niewayz, gotta go i think prem getting bored as well....will update when i get back from paradise CHERATING!!!!!

Deep-s**t

I don't know why, now days, people are so ignorent about things around them. All they care about is themselves. At the end of the day, they do the same mistake others do but they do not realise that. Instead, they will make a big fuss out of the mistake that others did .But when it comes to them it will become "not wrong" for me to do that kind of thing.
I admit, I have been a bit bias about things around me. I am trying hard to please every single human-being that i know,who lives all around my pathetic little life. All they could do is complaint complaint complaint. I'm fed up. It's not like they understand my situation of trying to keep everyone happy. They only care about themselves. Who gets the blame? ME ME ME!
I'm telling you, it is not easy at all to try to please everyone. Some understand, others just dn't care about the position you are in. They just bang bang bang. Come on la people, try to understand man, I also human being you know, i got feelings too. I sacrificed the one thing i wanted to do for a such a long time for that matter; but do people even care?All they know is i have offended them and i am bias. Hello! I am as sick and tired as you are!
I was kinda sad yesterday, i got called a lalang!hahahaa......hmmm...yeah....i know....:)

ok, need to rush to the bank boss wants cash.chow!

o, i, c, u, r, m, t.

Had a very hectic week. monday...let me recall, o..yeah, jee came over and asked me to help out with her fyp. I couldn't help much as we guys were planning to go for dinner. We went to TGIF! I know i know,it is kinda shamful but this was my first time to visit this place. I had pasta which had this really funny name that i can't remember.(i don't think anyone would!)Came back around 12 back home and was soooo damn tired. Went straight to bed. after like 40 minutes, there was a comotion in the aprtment. all of these guys started running out of the apartment and they were trying to tell me something but i was too sleppy to notice it. Then i thought maybe the right thing to do is get out of bed and check out what was the hoo hoo haa haa about. I went out and all these guys standing outside the apartment shouting at me, asking me to come out now! so i also took my car keys and went thinking maybe they wanted to go and eat. Then, they told me that there was an eartquake! I went hahahahahaha. They got the news from cyber. but it was certainly fun.
tuesday, came back from work and continued with the flash thingy...i mean jee's fyp. I learnt alot from this tutorial. things i never knew flash can do. so, it was a discussion most of the time. went to bed early as i was tooo tired after office work.
wednesday, the day i excercised!Hahaha..it was an experience indeed! we went to a friend's newly opening restaurant. "kalyianee's" i think the name was. we suppose to leave at 7 but we left at 7.30pm. got stuck in the jam after sunway,so took the npe. got stuck in the jam in pj. so took a loooong turn to tmn. jaya. took lrt to ampang park. from there had to walk like 2km to the place(i remember it as a torture than excercise). went there, and got straight to the food section as i was freaking hungry. had a good dinner. then had to walk back two kilometers. got back home, too tired to do anything...went straight back home.
thursday, had a hectic day in the office.so much thing to do,so little time!! went back home,continued the discussion with jee.went for dinner. waited for the clock to strike 12.15am because we planned a prank on nantha. called jenny and told her to call nantha and say there was another eartquake! he bought it...
had a good laugh!
friday today, had to finish up some left over project from hsbc which has been going on forever!!!
now i am waittin to go back!
ok,i think i continue some other time..hungry,belum makan la...chowz

laws of nature

is it wrong to like someone else's girlfriend? As i was driving to work, this dj suddenly came up with this topic.it got me thinking...hehehe. to be honest,im a very very very bad person. i made two relationship which was perfect break because i wanted to grab the girl. i don't know, it was exciting to do that. It is like hey, i can break up a perfectly normal relationship. The worst part of it, i got it back! The girls chose someone else and not me after they broke up!hahaha
*Alicia key's song playing in my head*what goes around comes around ,what goes up must come down.
Maybe that's the reason i am single. Maybe it is a payback time from HIM!
Tidak apa lah...i enjoy being single tapi kadang kadang....hmm...
All the single people out there...unite..
Ok, i ran a bit out of topic for a while,*spank myself*
I don't think it is a wrong thing. I mean, if you love the other person,and that person has feelings for you...why not?to hell with the boyfren,too bad he couldn't keep up to her standard! Plus, you know, love is blind but sometimes people tend to get confused over love and affection. Imagine, you steal someone else's girlfren and you realize that it was just affection and not love..die lor!!
But if you put yourself in the boyfren's shoes...damn i would kill the girl and the guy..both!
Even worst if you know the guy who actually stole ur girl. My god, how can they live?
I would commit suicide..seriously. A promise i give to all my frens, don't worry, i wont even try to get near your girlfrens...so they are safe...hahahaha i can't handle the consequences.
So, if you are planning to get someone else's girlfren or boyfren, think twice..or three times.
I have been there, trust me, you wouldn't want a enemy when you leave this world.heheheh

a handful of joy

When you are happy, you expect everyone else to feel the same. When you are sad, you expect evryone to understand you. Is this normal for a human? Why is it so? There are some who likes to make other people happy when everyone is sad. This at times can be very helpful but most of the time just anoying. There are people who wants others to be sad when everyone is happy. On the other hand, there are some who don't show emotions at all because they don't want people to know anything about them. There are some who can disguise verl well that means when everyone is sad but they are happy, they would act sad also. There are some vice versa.

Why am I writting about this? I have no idea. I just felt like writting about it.

Is beauty really not skin deep? Then,why do people admire the beauty which is skin deep only most of the time? Lets say some one good looking does anything that is nice, they would be categorized and beautiful. What if someone not so good looking does something nice? A good human being? Why can't they be called beautiful also? Let's say someone good looking acts really unpleasant. They would be called names but deep down inside, it will attract those who called names in the first place. Why is it so? Because their attractive?because they are pretty?because they are beautiful?

Talk about human behaviour towards something huh?

It is a mystery that even GOD is trying to figure out. :)

back-stabbers

ahhahahaha, i hope my fren is reading this as i have told him i would write bout it!
i was just joking. u have done it before, so it doesn't have a great impact on me as i was potraying it yesterday.
so, chill..sometimes i just think that u know me too well,man!
:)

best compliment i got so far

"But deep in my heart u r one of a kind...N u will hv a special place in my heart.."

Unedited version....:)

Priotrity

As the whole world knows, i am a sensitive person. only thing that they don't know is...i don't show it. I thought in this blog, I could write whatever I am not satisfied about and pin-point each person who has actually made the condition uncomfortable for me. Now, I am just not sure wether I can do that. I am afraid it might, you know offend them. Damn!
Ok, lets come to the story..forgive and forget? Easy to be done, aint it? For my sake, I am that kind of person. I often get angry, but i will forget before the day ends. It is like an addiction. You know what you going to get out of your action, yet you want to do it because you want to forgive and forget. That's funny or maybe I am just sick!
Sometimes, you have to do something that you know going to offend some people but for self-centered reasons you have to do it. It all comes down to U in the end. If you think about it, everyone in this world are self-centered. It only can be seen clearly with some. The rest just don't show it literaly. For example, when you help someone, the reason you do so is for self satisfaction and get a good impression form the person you are helping. So, isn't that selfish?
Sometimes, when you put something to ur priority, stick with it! Why do you have to change your mind? If that is important, do that. U promise a person one thing and then cancel it because something else comes up. And then you cancel that thing also because something else comes up pulak.. The person you ditched in the first place would have felt two impacts. Maybe he/she tought ok, i believe the reason he canceled is reasonable. But when you cancel that so that you can meet someone else....thats just too much. Even if you are friends or not friends, the anger would still be the same. *sigh*
Why do people tend to get jealous of someone? For me, if it is a person i know personally, I would never get jealous. Instead I would be proud and happy for that person. If the lucky person is someone I don't know, I get really jealous. I don't know why! Maybe my nature of being a good person kut...hahahaha
My family...i don't miss my brothers at all. My parents call me each day without fail..so there's a lil bit of eagernest to meet them. But most importartly, my grandmother. Love her soo much. I soo miss her, miss her cooking as well. I basically grew up with her since both my parents were working. So, I am closer to my grand mother than anyone else in the family.
Quit smoking? Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahha (that's all i could say!)


I want to try writtin a poem,so comment on it who ever reading it,ok?

As green as the leaves,
As red as the cherries,
As blue as the sea,
As bright as the Sun,
As innocent as a child,
As pure as love,
As beautiful as friendship,
As good as it gets,
As far as we go,
As close we will be,
As forever that would be...
As anything comes along,
As much it makes us stop,
As along as I have you,
As that much I know I am alive!


Thank you,thank you.....:)

Rojak Pasembor

Things has turned from bad to worst. As I was thinking I was actually coming out of all the clusters, I am being pushed down more and more. I believe this is a test GOD is putting on me to see how far can i go. Well, I'm gonna prove to HIM alright. With the people who loves me around me, I know nothing can change or make me cry. Some problems settled in a very uneasy way where the decision made actually solves the problem but not in a pleasant way. The only problem which is haunting me very very much now is MONEY! The budget I made doesnt seem to be right! I have no idea. I think I have to sacrifice somethings in life that I love so much for this. But I know things will change. That is what that is still keeping me going on. My faith in me is slowly disapearing and if i don't react now I dont know where am i gonna go. I can see bright light in front of me, but i have a hard time to leave the street i am standing now. I love it so much. people trust me, people think i am a part of the family, yet i just can afford it. The price that i have to pay is just to much. I have taken the first step away from the street. let's see how far do i need to go to reach the brighter side.
I wouldn't know what i would do without all my frens. Who am i gonna tell stuff to, who am i gonna get up in the morning wake them up and say good morning before leaving to work? who is gonna give me rm1 when i don't have money to go back?who is gonna go for lunch with me? who am i gonna go dinner with? who am i gonna disturb when i am bored? who am i gonna make fun of? who is gonna make fun of me? who i am gonna beat up? who?.....who?
I believe evryone has to go through this period of feeling. Man! It is even worst than falling in love! I tell to myself always, where they gonna go? they gonna be around. only that not with u. so, it doesnt matter. but the distant! thats the poison in every relationship i have had so far.
When u go futher apart, the more u gonna feel ur frens like strangers. I know keep in touch is good but how far can that work? U will have ur own set of frens, i will have my own set of frens. can't be making fun and do crazy stuffs like last time. distance makes the heart grow fonder and stranger...i believe.
As much as i love my school frens, my uni frens are the ones i love more. i dont know why but i feel that they will always be ther like brothers and sisters. After this, dont know wahts gonna happen...i just dont want to go through this period, i still want to drive my frens around, i still want my frens to pay for me when i dont have money, i want to fetch my frens from pudu, i want to go for holidays with my frens, i want to have lunch with my frens, i want to fetch my frens back from campus, i want to get drunk with my frens....:((
I really love u guys and hope we wont go apart...

over and over again

I had a very bad day yesterday. I don't know what happened to me. It was some sort of nervous breakdown I suppose. I was suddnely bombaded with all this problems from all these people. You know what got to my head? The fact that all these people are having these problems and I am having this totally opposite sort of problem. Yes, I admit, when it comes to giving advice, I am too generous ( I will talk as thoguh I have been through all the situations but actually, I just figure out how to come out of a certain problem) but when it comes to me who is having problems, I just .....
Ok, I will tell you what my problems are ( damn! im started the whining again!) but what the heck,it's my blog anyways...heheeh
1. I am not very happy with the job I do now, even though it is the best job in the world.
2. I am feeling something's gonna happen...had a bad dream
3. I feel my frens are actually floating away from me...
4. I have no money, but I will try to get some just to lend it to my friends
5. People in this world have changed from what I knew when I was in School or even University
6. I am just sad, had a braindead. I had this pile of work to do and all i did was stare at the monitor
7. I was damn hungry (i try not to use bad words)
8. I take things easy but when someone close to me does something out of my league, i get touchy ( yes i am a touchy biatch)
9.Everythnig seems to be going wrong.
10. I am just pissed with myself, everyone else and i think i deserve something better than what i have now.


Ok, there,i said it.....so what i did yesterday?? hmm... after work, say it was around 5, just to get things outta my head, i drove and drove and drove and drove every possible road i can get with the putut amound of petrol i had in my car tank. And I mananged to just sit,drive, turn the music loud and think bout what the heck just happened to me! I t then was around 8 and my good fren started calling me to ask where the hell am i and why am i not back to the apartment yet. so , went back. Some how i felt a relieve like something heavy has just been lifted from my head.

When I met my frens back in the apartment, my mood just changed back to normal...i guess thats why you call them friends huh? Even when they don't say anything, the presence of them just made me happy back. Went for dinner, couldnt eat much even when i didnt have my lunch..:) After that, all my frens turned crazy..just crazy..the thing that we did was just out of this world....but i can't tell u here...hehehee

Well, that was my day, and I really thank god for my frens...cherish them a lot...one wise man said, the closer you get to a person the more you get angry with them for simple things and the more you will start to care for them. So, thanks buddies...luv y'all

simply sucky

I believe in fate,but that doesn't mean that i leave everything to it. Fate is what I create for myself. For instance,when you say it is fated for me to be in the position I am in, it was up to me to actually get here. How can you say it is fate? Fate for me is when it was a fate that I was here, and it was a fate that I met this girl and it was a fate that I fell in love for her (sorry for the lovey dovey mood,it's valentine's day,work with me people!)
Well, talk about a day of sorrow man! It has been like this for like pass 5 years. The worst is when you would love to have that someone to be ur valentine but that person belongs to someone else ( got you people wondering ehh? ehehehehe) Don't worry, not anyone that you people know of. I believe it is not fate that has brought me here, but it is me,yes myself ...i wanted this..now I have it,thank you god,your so generous in all these things,aren't you?
Ok, I know I ma just typing crap here...I am affected by the day, i suppose, i want to believe it is the day,so back off anyone who thinks it is not or else...
I was kinda upset for another thing...i got to know my fren was scared to tell me something...u think i can be harmful to anyone?Come on,i'm this cute little thing that loves to love people...yes, i do bite at times but it is in a lovey dovey intension. Common, it does hurt a bit but anyways, since i found out from someone else rather than you....it hurt even more...
I will recover, i need time...man, i sound so phatetic..sicko...im so emotional...my my ....i have to change,grow up!
All i do is whining.....damn!

funny funny world

Its funny how the world turns out to be. People hate each other, people love each other, people just don't care about each other and people who cares about you too much that it gets annoying. Alittle bit of something is nice but a lot of something just ruins the mood. Like a famous chef always tells..don't put in the ingredients more that it suppose to be as it will make your food suck!(my grandma told me)
I believe people mean stuff they do, but keep in mind my friend, people hate it when you bump into their business. If they want you to bump into their business, they will tell you to. So, until than, don't try to act like a hero....you will be the one hurt at the end.
Don't you just hate it when someone starts touching you and as you try to avoid it, they keep coming closer? You can't say anything to them because you don't want to offend them. But if you like touching stuff, why don't you go touch yourself?at least you get the satisfaction, ;P .
So what if i still have feelings for my crush? I know it ain't gonna happen, no sparks to be sparkling any type of connection...but the satisfaction i get of knowing that i actually have feelings for someone.It just gets my feet off the ground.
If you don't want any relationship than, get your butt of my life! You know I still have feelings for you..and I can't be your mentor in solving problems because all I am going to do is to make you breakoff with your other half. Ok, maybe I WILL do it...without me realising it!
I am happy that you are happy. But trust me my dear, I am happy too. Happy that you are not in front of me because I don't think I will let him go off that easily. He would probably have a black eye and bruises around you know where.
But after all, that is the best for me. I know you mean no harm but it is harmful just to hear from you. Time will never change what has happened. Get on with your life.....without me.Let me live, let me breath, let me go pick some other flower for my diary.
I don't have to go through the pain of downs in love? Well, you shown me one, and trust me, it is the worst i felt so far. So, who are you to judge wether I will get a gem or just a plain stone? Either way, they both don't have feelings. I bet that what you want me to go through....don't you?
I am lucky? Who said so? Ok, maybe I am. But I am not lucky enough to have you. Doesn't it all just vanish in the air now? Doesn't it?
You maybe not the first BUT surely you have been the hardest to be forgotten.
You don't have to apologize, what's done is done. If it's meant to be it's meant to be. If it's not, it's just plain fucking not.
You are forgiven not forgoten....and you will never will be.
Thank you, Thank GOD and thank the fate.

RM10 per person can keep this boy alive

Hi guys,

This is Shuresh here. I have done a website in the aid of this young boy who is currently in SJMC,diagnosed with cancer (specifically stomach cancer).He is only 5 and has been through hell. I went to visit him last weekend after my friend told me about him. He is in a serious condition and his father started crying to me telling me that he has lost his ways to find for funding his son's operation. They need at least rm150 000 to completely heal him. I believe this is a right place for us to start to give the boy a helping hand. I really think we should help him as his father told me that the boy keeps on asking him when can he go back home. I just can't bare the pain to look at him. Im agine how his parents futher more,himself would feel? We should do something bout it. Pls guys help.

I beg u...http://www.geocities.com/s_k82/

...shuresh...

Singapore! here i come!

I am going singapore tommorow!! woo hooo!! Ihavent been there for like 7 years. Excited one side, worry also one side.Have to go and come back the same day with my boss somemore!!! It is a business trip so i guess it has to be that way. Singapore!watch out! me coming there!ahahahahhaaha!
I cant believe my boss trust me so much til he wants to bring me along so that i can meet the company clients. He wants me to handle the account after i get introduced to them. I am not sure of sticking with the company though. Probably in like few months...chow only..hehehe( thats if i get a better offer) but til then, im stuck with flaming pear sdn. bhd. It is a wonderful job and i love it! but it is just a stepping stone for me to get into the real working world...so i leave it to HIM to decide where my career path leads.

Nothing lasts...

My dear workmate didn't get the pleasure of working with us anymore as the company couldn't afford to...what the hell??? I f you don't want to take in people,you shouldn't have applied to take him in the first place??Now as he got comfortable,you have to break the news.It is not that I'm too sensitive or anything, but he is the psyco who lights up the office. Now if he leaves, it is gonna be like hell in the office...Gonna miss his jokes and talks badly. I hope he gets a better job with a better salary and other wonderful workmates. I still remember the times we use to talk bad bout other workers in the office, hahahaha. Now that he is leaving, I am thinking of going off too. You must come and experience it urself. This office, is a dead place. Everyone work work and work. No one talks to each other unless it has something to do with work. Salry,hmmm...cukup cukup makan jer..since it is a small company, and i mean it when i say small because there gonna be only four of us if he leaves. How I wish he would stay. Damn!

My world

At times when you feel like you are alone in this world, you tend to think about so many stuff. When you think that the person you can depend for the rest of your life, that's when you will realise you were wrong. I believe on the statement,"me,myself and i"
Not only me, but i bet a lot of us go through this,you feel like you are alone in this world, neither your parents nor your friends are trustable and depend on. But one thing that happened to me that made me think back. When ever i feel not comfortable, out of cash, need a friend to talk to or just to tell my problems, i can turn to my parents. They have been there for me for like 22 years,but I have never seen it. After starting my working life,it hit me quite hard. But just when I thought I am lost, my dad came to the resque. They would do anything for me. I am so thankful for my parents and always will. No one in this world that I would trade for my parents. Even if I don't get married, I would be happy enough if I could stay with my parents.
Then, my friends. I love all of them, but they too have their lifes. I can't be depending on them most of the time.I don't own them. But for my parents, I and my brothers are their world. Inow have a life that many would wish to have. My loving parents who are there for me no matter night or day and my beloved friends who I cherish always. Even at times we might have some misunderstanding or arguments but at the end of the day, we would be like nothing has happened. Thats one thing I love about my friends.

my life, my business...butt off !

Why do people like to butt in people's life? I hate it when people talk about what I do! It's my life, my set of friends. So, if you got any problem with that, go shoot yourself! Is it wrong to talk to someone to make friends? My friends are my world. They are more important for me than my life itself. But when I get restricted to whom I should interact with and to whom I shouldn't, it pisses me off. People fail to understand that if someone talks to you, it is on the basis of friendship not LOVE! grow up people! there are more to life,so get out of the nutshell and explore the world. I admit, I do talk behind people's back, but once that person clear things up with me, i stop! but some don't get it. they have this brain made out of clay that nothing get absorbed. even if you tell a million times it is still wrong for them. If I fall in love with someone, I would tell the whole world, if I am going after someone I will tell the whole world too....so until then, just keep your comments and remarks about me to yourself. I couldn't care less about what you talk about me as long as it doesn't involve the third party. If you say i'm ugly, fine with me, you say i'm fat, fine with me but when you start creating something that is not there and try to make it as though it is there, that's just plain stupidity. So, i believe you are not that stupid to actually do that. People out there who are reading this, you can mean it in a joke manner but remember, I am not the only person involved here. You wouldn't want to hurt anyone else. Please and to all, im clarifying now, I AM SINGLE AND NOT IN LOVE WITH ANYONE AND I AM NOT GOING AFTER ANYONE..........

watcha lookin at?

Everyone is unique in a certain way,but why do people get tempted to get a second glimpse on a certain people?Is it their looks? is it that they are unique( in a very unpleasant way?)or can it be that they remind you of someone? I had this experience so many times.I don't really understand why but i have caught few people staring at me for no reason.Some times I myself would not notice it but when my friends tell me,i would feel ackward enough.Not to mention, i have done it few times myself. Some people are born beautiful which naturally attracts attention towards them. But some really try hard. They would like to look different and stand out in the crowd when they are anywhere. I was once like that, but all the attentions was not pleasant at all. When people don't just stare and start talking behind your back,that is very very hurting especially you hear it from someone else. Nowadays, being invisible suits me better. I hate socializing,so i thought all the attention would only keep me away from them actually coming and talking to me. I was wrong!
Sometimes it doesn't hurt to get noticed in public,but it would the best if you get noticed not for your physical appearance.Don't get me wrong, it is not that i am saying beautiful people should go through the knife or anything to hide their appearance but if you are beautiful but people actually look at you because you have achieved something greater than just your looks, it would be damn cool! I remember Aishwarya saying something to an interviewer, "the best praise I got is not that people say I am a greek godess in an indian soul but when people say i am a good actress and i am for real!"
So, people out there who wants to be noticed,make sure it is because of something you did and not for how you look or how you want to look.Long live the good looking people!hehehehe

Still a wonder

Have you ever had the tought of you being watched all the time? I came up with this theory of life and I have shared it with a couple of my freinds and the response was like,"you really got nothing to do, do you?"Hmmm...actually I don't have anything to do so I just let my mind explore to the extend of human creation.
Now, to my story,I admit I believe in GOD, but that doesn't mean I have to go to temple or pray everyday,right? Even if you say no,thats not going to change my way of believing..One day,as I was driving back from work, it hit me! I started questioning why do I even exist? Then, slowly I came to this conclusion. We all are dummies done by GOD as a specimen for HIM to come up with a perfect human being. We all know no one can be perfect! So, what he is doing is creating humanbeing and seeing what would a person do in different situations. For example, if you fail in your papers,what would you do? HE gave us brains which somehow doesn't stimulate to extreme measures of decision making which can actually be the answer for that specific situation.No one is wrong,it's just that the way they think,the way HE wants them to think and come up with the perfect solution.One friend asked me," so you don't believe in heaven or hell?" I said no. Its like you are given a soul, which has been improved from the person before you, all the mistakes he has done has been corrected and given to you....now, your job is to make more mistakes to be corrected by GOD.When it comes to the day where HE thinks that you are ready to be a whole new improved version of human being,there will the day the meteors visit earth again.I am not talking bout the small tiny meteors,no i am talking about the revolution of changing the whole world. As it has happened before where humans have improved from stone age to revolutionized culture and humans who can think and talk languages.This happened because the GOD thought he was ready to release a new set of humans into the world to be tested.
Ok, now i BET i just have confused you nicely,now now....just forget about whatever you just read because that is just my opinion and i bet you guys have your own thinking and believes.No offense to anyone,ok?

Please be free to give your opinions ya ;)

The effect of boredom

Hola fellow sapiens....i have decided to create my own blog under the circumstances of boredom.Even though I hate typing and writting,i bet the blog that i have created would be mostly my opinions on stuff and the things that bother me probably for that specific day.So if anyone gets offended or even agree with me do be free to drop down a comment.I will NOT try to change or edit my opinions anywayz,hehehe...so just read on..